Years and years of ups and down, DCs, job upheavals and major trust issues and arguing have now caused DP to suffer a breakdown. It's terrible but I feel so resentful that my PND was ignored and I was called crazy and all sorts when I was really struggling as I had no support at all and now even though I am being as supportive as I can be I'm not allowed to say single thing he seems out of place. Thanks god his drinking and angry outbursts are less but it's still like I cant say anything or he will just shut me out like he's done for years, silent treatement and so on. He moved out a little while ago because he can't cope with the constant arguing (he loses his temper when I say something he doesn't like or I don't agree with his opinion) which is fine as it is calmer but we are stuck in limbo as he can't make up his mind what he wants. For me it's just fuelling the resentment and whilst I do still love him his constant inability to make up his mind about whether he wants to make things work is crushing my self esteem.
I don't know how to just let this go once and for all as I keep getting pulled back into this because we have children.