The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Swinging Into Sobriety!

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Hello there,

I'm Mouse, one of the Brave Babes travelling far and wide, stopping off here and there to collect lovely folk, just like you, for a natter all about booze and the blues that come with being a drinker of whatever quantity.

We don't wear or sell judgey pants here, although a G-string or two (Oooh Matron!) has been known to sort the fan belt out on the Bus as we've been driving for such a long time now!!

In short, we've regular posters here, lurkers, those who have managed to keep their drinking to 'social' occasions, some who are really struggling on an hourly basis and some who are completely dry!

Whatever your drinking 'status', you're welcome here in the new bigger Battle Bus, (as requested) whilst we head far and wide, listening to one another, as we face each day that comes our way, whether it be good, bad or downright ugly, we really have seen it all and don't mind one bit. Lurk or chat, it's up to you but one thing you will always find, is a warm welcome, Opal Fruit wrappers (Looks at Ma bosom push up! ) and of course, in complete confidentiality.

So, if you'd like to look what happened on the last thread (a bit like catch up TV) you can look at this link which will take you there - JUST HERE

And, if you would like to see where we started driving this wonderful Bus, over seven years ago, you can have a look at this very honest thread - RIGHT HERE

Hope to see you soon,

Mouse xx

Thanks Easy, tbh....I think it's a do or die situation. I said I was going to kill myself the other night....I stormed out and ended up with to police looking for me. I was so upset and the wind fuzzed my head....the amount of times we've had a row have I've envisaged stabbing my self in the neck....or have punched myself in the face. I'm not sure why I do this. I do know drink will heighten it though...I don't want to die, not at all. I just feel so sad and so desperate. Well. That's one bottle done. My dad says I have my finger hovering over the self destruct button....I think he's got a nerve since he left me in the shit once, is an alcoholic himself (but dry 24 years now). The apple and all that

I've just ordered take away

I'm crying again now, I hate myself, my weakness. I hate my own pitty , I don't deserve a seat on the bus. And I don't want to make anyone feel sorry for me or awkward x

(((Hugs))) Will

will eat the takeaway, then clean teeth,drink of water and bed. No more booze tonight if you can. We all deserve our seats on the bus and the bus kind of finds us and draws us together. There are Babes on here with tough backstories, abusive relationships, I'll physical and mental health and a host of other things and they are all here for a reason, as are you. To share out experiences and draw strength from each other. It's not weak or pitiful to keep on going when things are tough. Ask babyjane or mouse or any other babe and we will all have been where you are in some shape or form. And still are. Fasten your seatbelt, love,and hang on in there.

Big squidge for you will

Please know it's ok to need help, we don't hesitate with physical injuries, our state of mind and mental wellbeing is vital too and sometimes life just gets too much. Stick with us, get some rest. Nothing you say will shock any of us.

Hey guys, I'm still in the sidecar. Been crying the past couple of hours. Ds1 was diagnosed with a genetic disorder a few years ago and he had a pal round today and it kind of put a magnifying glass up to ds1's lack of understanding and speech etc. Feel like shit, I've been cleaning since we moved cause my OCD has gotten out of hand. Baba is being a demon from hell and ds2 is being amazing but is basically getting no attention. Feel awful, feel tired, don't know where to even start.

Sorry for the selfish post

I don't even want the stinking wine, I hate it! I want to be happy. Thank you all. I'll keep posting as it does helps, I'm so lonely, it's nice to talk. X I'm sorry I've been self absorbed, hopefully I'll be like Ma or Baby or even JesusWhatNext and be able to help other Babes x

Oh flowery that sounds tough. What a lot on your plate. Any chance of an early night for you too?
,Will you got me mixed up with the sober ones...I'm still here, still drinking and still failing to beat the wine witch most of the time. Socfish was a Babe who got free, she used to drive the night bus. And lux you have done a shit load of AF days..and obrigada aren't you a good while AF now?
Keep posting will. This bus is amazing for its support and friendship, whether you are drinking or not

Oh will and flowery I feel for you. I know I'll not stay as determined as I am right now so can see myself in you both.
Dust yourselves down. Tomorrow is a new start xx

Early night here for me, I hope the struggling ones get some rest.

I'll be here with the bacon sarnies in the morning x

Another one sending strength to will and flowery. Please keep posting.
I am in and out the sidecar so often it's like a sporting endeavour.
Nothing you post will shock. And things can and will get better.

Just sick of reaching this point. Ds1's diagnosis drive me so far down I went to a psychologist woman so I'm going to book back in tomorrow.

I am too anxious to leave the house again so I invited a 'friend' round to go for dinner tomorrow. To be fair this woman likes to put me down and make me feel worse but at least I'll get out. I think maybe I should cry off cause she'll make me feel worse, maybe I should but I've not left the house in a week.

Don't know. Any advice?

Don't spend time with someone who is going to make you feel worse flowery.

Big hugs to Will and Flowery, just wanted to second what the lovely Lux and Ma have said really. This bus is open to everyone, it's not about deserving it, you will never be judged here, only supported.

42, this really made me smile, I feel exactly the same: "I am in and out the sidecar so often it's like a sporting endeavour."

Night babes, fresh new day tomorrow.

Hugs and strength from me too for those doing it tough tonight. We've all had some
forms of such dreadful moments which is why we are all here. Posting and being honest here is so brave and positive, please hold on to that.

I'm only a few weeks into this bus ride and am in and out of the sidecar, but am spending more time on the bus and feeling like I'm gradually getting stronger and more focused: it does help so much to be able to express and speak honestly about this battle that we all face.

For some reason I have a strong sense of the depth of mutual support and strength here tonight especially for these struggling, and it's making me feel very humble and emotional. And I'm AF!

flowery....please don't spend your time with someone who will make you feel worse about yourself....that's exactly what I'm trying to get away from. No vimpany is better than shit company....I just need to put this in place myself. X I feel so much better for posting here, di that rather than have someone make you feel crap....he'll, we can do that ourselves x

Thanks 42, thanks to all of you. I'm going to be waterskiing from the side car tomorrow as I've gotten into the second bottle. But I have hope!

Will, flowery, hugs. Long time since i posted am still massively failing but seeing all the struggles thought i should.. Will, we are here for you. I was a long time lurker when you were posting a while back. How are you doing now? Flowery, moving istough, any sort of mental health issue makes things incredibly hard. I have HA and some days feel i cant look after my kids because my drinking is killing me. I wil be crippled on the sofa with anxiety.Its so hard, you must be a great mum to be posting here and worried. I not sure seeing anyone who puts or brings you down would help your current mindset or situation... Is there a family mentor at school or a liaison worker?

Ma, will, daisy I know I shouldn't go out with her cause she really isn't a very nice person but I need to get out of the house before this gets any worse, feel like a pathetic mess.

Ds is being really hard work just now, ds2 not so bad and baba is beautiful but I'm pretty sure she's the spawn of satan who's decided not to nap during the day. I really don't know what to do, I need to book the appt for the listening lady I know that, I need to try and leave the house I know that too but it makes me itch and the only thing not making me itch is the dreaded wine witch. I'm trying to make jokes but in reality I'm really not coping and I don't even know how to word that.

Hello I'm flowery and I've officially reached rock bottom and I can't seem to climb my way out, it's a very dark and horrible hole and I just want to feel better again. Just feel like a massive failure to my kids, dh and myself, they all deserve better and I don't think I have it in me to change, I'm not strong enough

flowery hold my hand and we will stop each other from sinking.......I do understand what you mean...just to get out. And by the way, there's a whole more heap of fossils before you reach Rock bottom.0, so don't give up yet xx But I get what you mean. I'm officially drunk an now listening to you the 13 reasons why soundtrack.....#oncourse

I'm currently on Ultravix - Vienna ....

I'm gonna feel shit at work tomorrow, that would be OK Athens best of times (I work in a call centre where I have Solicitirs and share holders shout st me)

Only you now....flying pickets glass of water for me

That should read flying pickets, (commer)