Hey guys! I'm not writing on here to get any replies telling me I'm stupid, I just want a bit of guidance and support due to feeling very alone.
I am only 18 years old, and am 13 weeks pregnant with my first, young I know and it wasn't planned but from the second I saw that scan I knew I would love and give this baby the world. My boyfriend, who I've been with over a year was happy at first, he is 20, I have all the support from family I could need! Myself and my boyfriend were saving for a flat deposit and now weve finally got there, he's decided h wants to put the money towards a brand new 20k Mercedes, and then think about moving out in 2 years, as he wants the car, and wants to do his own thing and get what makes him happy first. In my opinion he's being very selfish, which you can't do when you have a baby surely? Im so willing to give up everything for my little one already. So how the plan is to stay at my mums with the baby when it's here and hm. However when I showed him my dating scan two days ago, he wasn't happy Atall, and that night began saying how he can't stand the sight of me and chucked the scan pictures at me and told me to move out his dads house and take that 'shit with me' and said he don't want it. I've told him from the start I wouldn't push him into anything but t he was always sure he wanted this. Anyway this argument the. Escalated when he punched me in the face, leaving me with. A black eye, and pulled me by my hair into the bed, he then punched me in the face another 3 times before putting his hands around my neck and stopping me from breathing and screamed in my face he was going to kill me before eventually getting off and letting go. And then after apologised said how he didn't mean to and he does want this family and then got me some forozen pack for my head and asked me for a cuddle until infell asleep. He is like two different people ATM, and god knows I am so in love with him after him being the first thing to make me feel myself again after a sexual assault court case, and I don't want my baby to be brought up on a split family but what if one day he flips and it's not at me, it's at my little one? He seems to have shown such a nasty selfish side to him, but I don't want to just give up and walk away on someone I've put so much time into and someone who I want a family with and someone who claims to love me and I know fully well i love him. And someone who a lot of the time can be so amazing and so nice and funny and my best friend in the whole world. I just need a bit of support, or guidance as I'm feeling very alone, and I just want to be happy, so please, anything welcome.