What can I do!!

[hannahbellaa29]

I'm going to sound so horrible now.. but I've been with my partner 2 years.. he is lovely, but I have a drinking problem and I kick him
Out all the time.. but then I sober up and he comes back.. but this time was different I started talking to other lads.. I don't no why the hell I did it.. but I did! He has forgiven me because I'm finally getting help for my binge drinking.. but how can I prove I love him how can I prove how truly sorry I am.. I need to kiss arse and grovel!!

No, you don't and shouldn't kiss arse and grovel. Apologise, yes, and follow through on your promises to change.

You need to have a respectful relationship, not one where you abase yourself.

Clearly you have behaved badly and need to get your life in order and stop drinking. Get the proper help and support you need to deal with your alcohol problem.

You need to stop drinking.
You are getting help which is great but the best way to show him how much you love him is to really work on yourself and your drinking.
What help are you getting?
Have you managed to cut down on drinking?
Is it drinking when you are out?
What triggers it?

Have a look at THIS THREAD
It's a safe supportive place for people with alcohol issues.
Might be very helpful for you?

I binge drink.. I won't drink for weeks.. then go on a crazy 4 day bender that's filled full of regret!!
The help I'm getting is called path ways.. it does narcotics and AA meetings.. I'm there today!!
I don't no what triggers it.. it's as if a devil on my shoulder says you've had a bad week in work just 1 won't hurt.. but then that 1 turns to days of drinking and silly behaviour!!
I have told him a thousand of times that I'm sorry and he'll have a huge huge go at me.. then say sorry and he'll stand by me.. but I don't want it out of pity

Maybe now is not the right time to be in a relationship with him. It might be it's gone too far, and he is holding on when he should let go.

Or maybe you could go to relationship counselling together, or he could seek support alongside you with al-anon or something.

It's no point being in a cycle of you binge drinking, and now trying to stop, and him saying I forgive you, then throwing it in your face. You both need to deal with it in healthier ways.