Not sure if I am depressed? Lonely? Emotionaly numb?

[sparkle00]

Not sure if i have crashed and burned!
Does anyone ever feel emotionless? Like you're going through each day, doing what you're supposed to, but you have no feeling. I'm not sad but I'm not happy. Hate admitting that as in my job I see sadness every day. My head just feels numb. I can't plan forward. I don't cry. I don't laugh. I don't have friends just work colleagues but I'm not upset by this (this used to upset me up until a couple of months ago) I'm a single mum. I don't want to date, I have no interest at all (I was planning on Internet dating after being single for so long). I have no interest in looking nice anymore.
The only way I can explain it is I'm just numb. Never ever felt anything like it in my life. It's been a struggle over the years but I've always had hope. I can't find it anymore. I don't know what's happening to me?

Ds is home, had a wonderful time. His dad has asked if wants to go next week.

Ds has said no, 'it's all too much'

I get it, ds has autism, despite having a lovely time, he doesn't like his routine upset. Today he told me excitedly about his day, but told his dad, he wanted to go home and 'relax and see my mum'

He enjoyed his visit, but couldn't wait to get home to familiarity.

How to explain that to his dad, who doesn't know ds or have any understanding of autism!

Oops wrong thread! Sorry