Hi, I feel totally lost. I've been married to my husband for nearly 10 years and together for 17 years. We have 2 kids - 9 and 7. I want to leave but feel so bad about it and question if I'm doing the right thing. My husband has put me down constantly over our relationship and made me feel worthless, to the point of crazy. He has said and done so many awful things, and been so angry. I didn't get it at the time as I thought I was all the things he said. He has demanded so much too. About a month ago, after a difficult year, I just stopped. So many times I have let him, always hoping I would be good enough, I just cant do it again. He now says he's had a wake up call, and it can all work fine, he's doing things with the kids, which he has never done before. It just doesn't sit right with me, and I can't do it. I just feel I have tried for so long, all I want is my kids and myself back. I will have nothing when I leave, he won't go. He has told me I am doing the wrong thing if I go and I will be separating the family. I don't know, I feel selfish for not trying again but I just know I can't do it, then I feel guilty. It's a constant circle. Why does he get to pick and choose when all I've done is try. Can anyone relate to this, sorry for the long rambling post x