I wrote a post a few weeks ago, H going through police training and said he needed a break after a week being away. Left me dangling and saying he wasn't sure whether we could work things out. That he hadn't slept with anyone else but was open to the fact that it would happen if we carriEd on being apart.
We spent a weekend together without kids and we've been sleeping with each other when he's home. I asked him if he wanted to see me this weekend or if we should just give it some time until he clears his head but he said we would see each other. So he came home and ended up having sex. But it was different he was rough and forceful. Then we had a chat where he said he felt bad for what had happened because his feelings weren't clear still. He said that it was the kids who were getting in the way of us fixing things basically. We have a 5 year old and 2 year old. And this question just eventually came out of my mouth. Have u slept with someone else. And he said yes. A year ago when working away. Don't even think he usEd a condom. I feel sick and violated. I guess this is the end.
I know I only have one option and that's to move on with my life.