Was this abusive or 'experimentation?'

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When I was between 7 and 9, I recall going into the shed, or other out of the way places, with brother, step brothers, neighbours boys. All or some of them. They varied in age from same age as me to 5 yes older. We would show each other our 'bits' and they boys would press their penises to my vagina. Nothing internal AFAIK. Sometimes they told me to kiss their penises and they would do the same back.

I can't remember if they had erections. I don't recall being 'made' to do it. Looking back, I really really don't know what to make of it.

I stopped reading this thread yesterday as I felt pretty upset by some posters who labelled this as ridiculous. Happy to be the more recent posts where others think that this kind of behaviour is not quite right.

OP - I hope position hasn't made you feel worse and you get support if that's what you feel you need.

Botero do feel free to pm if you want. I feel OK, as I said its hard to know what to think. This all happened in the mid 80's, and yes times were different. Pop stars/TV personalities had 'relations' with underage girls, but the fact that times were different doesn't make it right.

I think my real issue is, do I think certain things are OK or normal, as a result of this? When others would be concerned about it, or traumatised?

And again, this wasn't something I initiated or enjoyed, it was expected. I didn't know it was wrong. I think it was wrong.

I think the number and ages of the boys are the points that make others think that this was more than innocent experimentation and it was ongoing for some time. A teenager asking a 7-9 year old girl to touch him and him doing certain things to her overall would ring serious and very loud alarm bells now. If you have been left with a sense of violation that yes I would speak to some one about your feelings. If you have moved on, then there may be nothing to gain. If you want a better sense of what you would expect now as an issue, there is loads written about safeguarding, appropriate behavior etc for your own understanding