Pregnant with ex abuser's baby - need advice :(

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So I have recently found out that I am pregnant with my ex boyfriend's baby. We've split up as a result of the abuse I received from him not only physically, but mentality and emotionally. It is all currently being dealt with by the police who have encountered it as one of the worst cases she has seen in her whole 10 years in the force.
I don't know what to do as everyone is telling me I shouldn't keep it as its his and how i will grow up to hate it because of this, but I don't see how? Its my baby too and as horrible as it sounds i couldn't risk him ever seeing the baby just because of what he is capable of. The ex doesn't know I am pregnant due to a restraining order given to police so it's no contact. I'm left mentality and physically scarred from this man. Would it be such a bad idea to keep the child?

If it was me and I wanted to keep the baby, I wouldn't tell him. Him being in your lives will be hell.

I wouldn't keep the baby, OP, sorry. Not because I wouldn't love the child, but because it would tie me to my abuser forever.

I had a baby as a teen with an older man. Despite a restraining order banning him from coming near me, he was still able to gain access to our son. He was also given access to our son despite threatening to jump off a building with him among other things. Horrendous time. And full on horrendous for quite a few years.

Even now, TWENTY YEARS later, I still occasionally wake up to weird/abusive messages he's sent me in the middle of the night. Madness. Don't put yourself in the same position I did.

It's not the babies fault who it's dad is...you sound like you want to keep the little one...follow yr heart x

Op it sounds very much that you want to keep this little one!
This monster has taken so much from you already, why should he take this from you too! There are other options to abortion, if you decide that you cannot consider abortion but are not in a place where you feel you can Mother his child, there is adoption. But it sounds like you do want this little one!

I would consider a new start! Sell up and move somewhere remote, one of the Scottish Islands/ the Highlands/ Ireland. Somewhere completely new where you can recover and begin the journey toward healing. He has no reason to believe you are pregnant, if you move and start over he doesn't need to know that you had his child. If this is the type of man to come looking for you, then a fresh start for your safety could be a very good idea.

Sadly the level of abuse metered out to you has often little bearing on the contact a father can have. The thoughts of the family court being that the relationship between partners , and parents /children is entirely different, The law relates to a child's right to see their father. Whilst the parents relationship is fuelled by violence the parent/child's could easily be risk free (!) to the child and will allow supervised access for a period to assess the fathers behaviour and if they play the game well ,will then get unsupervised access.
I work in a job where I have a lot of daily access to the justice system. I think you need to take a step back from assumptions you may or may not have been told with regards sentencing.

I have seen people who have committed multiple rapes, people who have been convicted of manslaughter and even people who've committed murder get out before ten years . (What they get sentenced and what they serve are wildly different and rely on things like a guilty plea / 'good behaviour ' / age of perpetrator/ probation reports. As pp above have said, you are banking a lot on a lot of assumptions. He hasn't even been arrested yet, then the CpS have to agree to charge, he could be bailed, then 6-9 months to get to court . Followed by a jury convicting, (and don't underestimate the stress of giving evidence) .

Never let any of this put you off a prosecution. There are so many organisations out there to help, I just want you to know that it's not easy and 'a done deal' . Most importantly if you are making a decision wether to continue your pregnancy based on a belief that because of your ex appalling behaviour to you, he will be denied access - the chances of that are very remote. (Sadly)

I am the daughter of a deranged abuser who I've had no contact with since I was a toddler. It has fucked me up massively and I have a mental health issue and am disgusted to have his genes in me, I was a very difficult kid and have a lot of issues knowing what that monster did to my mother. There is no way I would force another person into this existence but it's entirely your choice. Congratulations on escaping from that worthless piece of shit.

Unfortunately, just because he has a conviction doesn't mean he won't be allowed access. The courts very rarely deny access. Women's aid currently has a petition about the family courts and how they don't have enough understanding nor training about EA/DV relationships and how it affects children. Read Claire's story on their website as an example truly terrifying how they didn't listen to her or the childrens wishes.

Unless your willing to travel far away to raise this child in another country(oz, usa distance!) where he is less likely to be able to travel to for access I would strongly recommend against having this baby.

Its a life sentence ...for you and the child.
The courts will grant the father access in the uk and Ireland if he wants it....and he may pursue this just to make you suffer.
Its near impossible to guarantee that this man will never no about this baby.facebook,word of mouth etc...it will get back to him!

Think long and hard OP.its not just as simple as saying you wont allow access or let him know...the law will be on his side as ever child has the right to a relationship with their father....unless that parent has damaged the child! They will not deny his paternal rights because he abused you...the law is the law.its not always fair!

Don't tell him whatever you do. He will have the perfect excuse to harass you.

If you want to keep baby, I'd seriously consider moving to another country.

Do what is right for you and your baby - if I were you I would téléphone Women's Aid as well as Rights of Women for advice on how to protect yourself in the future and if you decide to keep the baby. Social services will be involved if there has been DV and they will also be able to help you safeguard your baby and point you to other people who can help. Also, the comment about being forced to allow prison visits - thats absolutely false!! When in prison the father doesn't have a 'right' to see the child and is reliant on someone else bringing the child to them which YOU would have total control over. (I know this as I am in a similar situation myself being pregnant and the baby's father in prison - he was also emotionally abusive). It's very likely that SS would tell you to cut all contact with the father. If you have the baby, don't put his name on the birth certificate and put in all of the safeguarding measures you possibly can.
Hoping you're doing okay

Move change your surname and move he wont find you this country is huge honestly I was stalked moved 20 miles away and they didn't find me they drove through the village looking for me and still didn't find me just spend a bit of time go to Scotland maybe? Bury yourself with a new name shut down social media etc and live your life

I've only read your post, not the responses but I wanted to add something.
I was with a really horrid 'man' years ago and got pregnant. I kept my baby, we split up long before baby arrived. He still caused issues for me, I moved house a few times but always still local to my family.
When my son was 4, my ex tried to put my windows through (caught red-handed so didn't succeed). Police installed a panic button, I sat and had a good long think.
I made the decision to leave my home town and everyone, everything I had known all my life. At only 24, this was pretty scary!!
As I didn't have funds, I was moved to a women's refuge and was temporarily housed for 6 months before I got a permanent new home, an hour away from where I used to live.
I no longer look over my shoulder, I don't worry about him at all. He was arrested for what he did and was given a slap on the wrist (we're talking community service and fines, no prison time).
I'm very careful with my friend list on Facebook, I have the highest privacy settings too. I don't allow my son to be photographed for school either.
I now have 2 more children, another on the way and have been with their dad for nearly 7 years. It's hard work, but it's achievable. When my 2nd child was born and my partner wanted him to have his surname, I said fine, but could I take his name too? He was fine with that so both myself and my eldest also have a new surname.

Just to point out, my ex didn't care about my son, he's not on the birth certificate, never paid a penny. He has no rights at all, especially with a crime sheet like his. He only ever wanted to control me and cause me hassle.
Best thing I did was move away and have a fresh start.

I hope you find your answers, I hope you do what's right for you. Don't be swayed into a decision you'll later regret. You'll know what is right in your heart and your head.

Very best of luck to you

Hey OP I have been in a very similar situation and I did keep the baby. Think very hard about this though it wasn't easy at first. However now he hasn't been in contact for 6 years. My daughter is 7. Good luck whatever you decide to do (I was 37 by the way so I thought it was my last chance)

If he isn't in custody right now and there will be a delay of several months before he goes to prison - will you be safe during your pregnancy if you continue? Is he likely to flip out if he hears and be one of the vile people who would beat up a pregnant woman to try to make them lose the baby (obviously at great risk to the mother's life as well)? If he is, I doubt a restraining order would stop him, just add a little bit on the end of his subsequent sentence for the assault (and he may not care if he knows he is going down anyway)

I'm so sorry this happened to you. I echo what others have said, I could not keep a baby tied to this man, however much I wanted it. I would forever worry and live in fear that he would try to take the child away from me.

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