I have been seeing a lovely man I met through work for about 5 months now. He's very kind hearted and in many ways very thoughtful and generous. However, we've had a few aborted attempts at going away together for the weekend. Recently I suggested a city break (driving distance), but mid week as it fit with my son being away with his dad for October break and also my man works very hard and I thought it would be good for him to take a couple of days off.
When I suggested it he agreed, but didn't seem that keen. It then transpired that a meeting went in his diary that he had to attend (he is very senior at our work), putting the kybosh on us going away. He did seem sorry to have spoiled our plans and asked if we could reschedule. I suggested an alternative date and he agreed, saying he would book the hotel. I offered to do it, but he said he would take care of it. I asked if he would do it soon as our planned dates are coming up soon and he still hasn't done it!
He knows that I'm anxious about it, he knows that I want to get it sorted, but he keeps saying he'll take care of it, but it's still not done! I now feel like I'm badgering him, which makes me feel like crap. He tells me all the time he loves me and in other small ways shows he cares, but should going away together be this difficult? Am I being a high maintenance harpy or does this mean that he's just not that bothered about me?
I'd happily book the thing myself, but it's not the booking that's this issue. It's more an indication of what he really feels for me, which is he's not all that bothered. I find I'm obsessively thinking about when it's going to be booked and what happens if he doesn't book it and he let's me down again. Now that I write it down, I feel like I'm coming across as a nut! Do I just need a wet fish slap? (Sorry for the length if you've made it this far!)