What is happening to me?

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I feel like I'm going mad!

Me and OH argued last night after I bought DD (10 months) into bed with me while he was watching the boxing.

He has this way of pushing my buttons, making me feel like a shit mum, letting me go off when I reach my limit and then turning it around and making me feel like the crazy one/bad one.

I get to the point where I question myself and my reaction. I'm suffering from PND and only recently have I started to feel connected to DD. I was enjoying cuddling with her, she was fussy and settled beautifully snuggled up to me. I was wide awake. He claims I was snoring - I wasn't, I know I wasn't. But he manages to tie me up in knots and then step back, telling me I need to calm down, that we are on the same team, that he doesn't know what my problem is.

I feel like I'm going crazy.

OP the last line of your update sent shivers through me "I wish me and DD could leave but I've tried before and he won't let me." Please be very careful with your phone and delete your browsing history, in case he looks at it. And find a way of leaving, before the man who withholds your child, makes you think you're mentally unwell and stops you from leaving the house decides to step things up. Wishing you all the luck in the world and a better future for you and DD.

my story might help here?

one night my ex kicked off no idea why at me and the kids i had youngest in my arms he ripped him out of them and my fingernail caught his arm as he pulled him away he then screamed at me i had assaulted him and he was calling the police and having me arrested he then shoved my 14 year old into a ladder and my five year old thought he was going for me so he dived in front of me screaming dont hit my mommy he storms off saying he is taking the youngest and having me arrested my daughter was going to care (she isn't his) i begged him to forgive me and to say i begged him for my child back i groveled and apologised to him he finally gave me him back (he was screaming his head off the entire time) he said he would forgive me this time but if i hurt him again i would be in trouble i was then allowed to cook his food like a good wife my middle son pointed out to me my fingernail was hanging off and i was bleeding a few weeks later he was arrested for something else social services got involved and my son detailed his dad making his mom bleed social workers came down on me like a ton of bricks for staying with him

i believed him when he said he would have me arrested and i was terrified for my children but staying was the wrong thing to do

hth

wish me and DD could leave, but I've tried before and he physically stops me from leaving the house.

Terrifying. Could you go to your parents when he is at work and never go back?

As others have said, women's aid should be able to help you.

How are you today op?

I hope that you're beginning to realise that it's him that is the problem.

There's a brilliant book by Lundy Bancroft called Why Does he Do That? It's absolutely eye opening. If you get chance and it is safe to do so I thoroughly recommend reading it.

www.amazon.co.uk/gp/aw/d/0425191656/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1473675733&sr=8-1&pi=SY200_QL40&keywords=why+does+he+do+that

Bless you OP. he clearly doesn't like your attention being elsewhere. Like many MNers, been there & got the t-shirt.
His EA is likely to escalate into physical abuse at some time. I didn't see it coming - even told the Relate counsellor that he would never be violent. He had hit me, tore chunks of hair from my head & smashed my head on the floor within 4wks. Book a day off work, act 'normally,' & take yourself & LO to safety. Contact womens aid or contact the DV unit at the police station. Get yourself on their radar. Above all, stay safe. Wishing you all the best