I've done something really stupid...listen please

[Fraggledup]

I don't know how to link my original post, but OH and I had another blistering argument. I've been on FB and contacted my abusers daughter! She's got a fairly unique name but mines totally unique.

Don't ask me why, I don't know!

I just did it, I made out I was an old neighbour and my mother had died and they were friends. That I wanted to let him know...

He's dead! Am I pleased, am I angry?

I just don't know!
I just don't know!

Meanwhile, I've had rubbish counselling, things are worse between OH and i!

Currently locked I downstairs loo
, do no one can get to me.

Today has been a massively bad day.

Everything is coming back.

Someone please hold my hand

X

OP you are amazing

OP, you need to ignore the threats, I think you'll find on here it is called "the script".

Keep strong, keep walking, keep your head up high.

Just think, this is the last September you will spend with him. Next September, you'll be free!! Does that sound good?

OP you're amazing. You're doing so well. and a hand hold for you.

You've gone through so much and done so well moving forward. It's inevitable some days are going to feel tougher to get through than others. But you've got RL support, you've got us and you're frankly brilliant. I know it's easy to say but try not to let him get to you. You're showing him a lot more sympathy and understanding than he seems to have done you!

If you're genuinely concerned that he'll throw himself off a bridge, call the police. But I think you know he's using it as a weapon to bring you back in line.

Carry on with your plans to leave. In fact advance them if you can - he's done and said such horrible things - he's basically been psychologically abusing you through your past for 30years give or take. You've heard it all before - just focus on your plans, get everything in motion.

Fraggle sorry that yesterday was no good, hope today's been easier for you. Please try and think towards the goal of one day being separate from him.....I can bet you a bajillion pounds your mental health would start to be in a better place without him in your head. Xx