I have namechanged in case I am recognized in rl.
I am one of these people who doesn?t make friends easily, I can do the initial chatting and have even invited some to lunch but invites are never reciprocated. Over time I?ve learned to accept this, albeit that it does hurt.
Now there are a group of mums at preschool who always seemed to chat to one another. I appeared to be one of them, one of them I?ve known for a while, not that closely but in passing, and another I met in the park and we got chatting, In fact I was the first person from the preschool she?d had the confidence to talk to as she?s quite shy. After preschool the kids always go and play on a wall outside, they tend to just run up and down, chasing and generally messing around, and that?s when the mums tend to stand together and chat. But over this past week something?s changed. Whereas everyone used to stand together and chat, the two mums mentioned above, and one other, have started to stand together in a little huddle, talking amongst themselves, it?s a definite group which is impossible to enter if that makes sense? It was always those mums whose kids play after preschool so I find myself being excluded and I don?t know why. DS loves to play with his friends after preschool so I can?t just say that we?re leaving and avoid the situation that way. But if you looked in from the outside there would be this huddle of mums all pally and me standing on my own to one side.
I don?t know what I?ve done wrong. As far asI was aware we all got on fine, but I feel now that they have formed their own little group of friends which I?m not a part of. We went to a birthday party yesterday and they were all together as well and not one spoke to me.
Why is it always me that gets excluded? I don?t think I?m a horrible person, but yet I just can?t make friends.