I don't have a best friend...

[Karcheer]

In fact for most of my life I haven't and it makes me sad.

I'm 42, married, can't have children.

I've lots of good friends and some of them are best friends with each other. I get hurt when they refer to meeting up with their best friend on Fb etc as I used to think we were all equal friends.
Another of my friends has just got engaged and I've found out from another friend that three of our group are to be her bridesmaids, and that made me sad.
I know I'm 42 and should be over this. But I just wondered if anyone could shed some light on why I don't have a best friend.
Or how I can stop this upsetting me :/

Thank you.

I am down to one friend. And my husband. Doesn't bother me all. I am 45 and too old to make friends now!

I'm crap at making friends. Always have been. Social anxiety at school was a drawback for me and by the time I was confident enough not to worry constantly I ended up moving away and back again before I could really establish anything.

Annoyingly, the people I get on with the most are my DP's friends. Blokes, with the same sense of humour as me. Problem is, they've known DP since they were all about 5 so no matter how cool I am, they'll always be DP's friends first and foremost. DP teases me about it, and now I'm 31w pregnant I think he's hoping I'll meet some new naice Mummy friends But I'm very 'bloke' minded and not very good at being overly feminine, gossipy and idle chit-chat that comes with the mum and baby groups (generalisation based on experience so far)

As you get older I find you tend to have a circle of friends, and a 'best friend' is someone you maybe grew up with or from college, rather than a current friend.

Having larger group varied friends probably better than one main best friend- who you will fall out with from time to time!