Something weird is happening to me.

[Karmicgeelovething]

The last year has been eventful. Lots of outside stressy stuff, I ended a very toxic relationship, got my depression treated, cut out caffeine and booze pretty much totally, and I've kind of hibernated. I'm calmer and happier than I've been for years. I sleep great, I enjoy things I had forgotten. But, I've noticed I'm letting my personal appearance go. It's just of no importance to me, nor is exercise, healthy eating etc. I should be concerned. I've got two huge holes in my teeth and yet I can't be arsed to go to the dentist. I hate brushing them. I used to get my hair done professionally every 6 weeks like clockwork. Now I've got terrible roots and look bad! I don't like washing and showering, and even though I used to be a big style fan, now I'm content to hole up in my old pj's. I've piled weight on too.
It's like I'm avoiding any physical discomfort whatsoever, and turning into a mess in the process!

What the heck is happening?

It's worth checking thyroid levels as the first time I became ill self care (for me eating properly and teeth cleaning ) was an issue.

Ok, I googled the thyroid stuff thinking "there's nothing wrong with my thyroid" and it sounds like you're onto something. I get the most terrible urticaria for about an hour every day, no one knows what is causing it, and I hold it at bay with antihistamines. My joints are rubbish, and my feet are always cold. I just thought this was how I am, like my freckles etc but you might have a point. (With the use of Dr Google I've plumped for Hashimotos)

Those that suggested thyroid, what made you think of it?

Those that suggested thyroid, what made you think of it?

I have Hashimoto's. I didn't know what was happening to me either and I piled on the pounds. It got so bad I was continually cold, dull and lethargic - I couldn't even spell or add up. Thyroid problems sometimes coincide with giving up smoking and onset of menopause (which happened in my case) and mimic depression.

I also consulted Dr Google, then went to GP and was diagnosed straightaway. It took about 6 weeks until I was back to my old self. I lost the weight too.

Urticaria is sometimes a side effect of certain prescription drugs. Are you taking Citalopram or drugs for hypertension?

Foggy brain like treacle. Some put on weight; it's actually water retention and if you still eat lots and don't do as much running around you will put on weight (I don't).

Constipation is a key one too, but medication can alter that.

You sound fucking AWESOME! Well done. Yeah you do need a shower, and to see the dentist, but you've dealt really well with all the super important stuff, and you've realised that the superficial "how's my hair, what's the circumference of my arse today?" is all bullshit not to be to concerned by, YAY!

Thankyou, EyefulTower, that's made me smile!

Ok so by way of an update: saw the dentist yesterday, got plans in place to get my teeth back to normal. Saw doc earlier in the week and she sent me for loads of bloods, thyroid, immune, and hormone stuff. She's given me a different antihistamine which should sort the urticaria.
I took a deep breath and got a hair dye from the chemist and now I don't have terrible roots! it's not the same as a load of nice lowlights etc but it's made a difference.
So small steps. Tiny ones. I've made some changes around the household which I didn't have the confidence to make before, and they're positive. And I've relaxed with the kids and my husband, instead of constantly nagging about things.
I'm still very portly, and have had carrot cake for breakfast and lunch, but that's the sort of rebel I am these days!

My clothes are all a bit crap, and I went for a quick wander round the shops last night but didn't see a single thing. So I'm going to order a few bits on line and see does that pick me up a bit.

Maybe this is all just part of a slow gentle recovery journey...

If you're not depressed (and you're bring honest with yourself) maybe youre on some kind of non-material path to enlightenment?! Can't imagine it'll be easy with no teeth left though. I do see myself in your post though, a bit.

Lol! Hopefully I'll still have some teeth left!

Am feeling more and more "myself" somehow!

Good to hear Karmic !