I have 3 DC with a violent ex. Moved country but he followed us here. (Not UK). Despite aprroaching services and a sadly useless solicitor, we Had to go to mediation and he now has the two oldest 50 % despite them having a 30 min bus trip to school each way from where he lives. They are boys and adore their dad.
At one point the antipathy towards me and my family was hard to handle, but it has eased off since xmas.
My youngest is autistic. Not high functioning. She used to be very withdrawn and scared of her dad, butas she has been shielded from him for the last 3 yrs she behaves towards him like she does with everyone now: hhappy and content. I supervised contact, 2x2 h per month.Not sustainable I guess, but I will not let her be alone with him. He questioned her diagnosis, refused to read books about it, does not know her and she does not know him either.
After a break due to car in garage he claims I hindered contact. Now he wants unsupervised contact, progressing to sleepovers. I'm bricking it.
I have a new solicitor, but am petrified. My ex abused me sexually etc.
So lately I've started to think of ways to commit suicide. But I would have to take my daughter with me as her father has parental responsibility. I know this sounds nuts, I just dont know what to do.
Sorry this is long.
I have family and new boyfriend, but with this latest thing, I'll never be rid of my ex. And if I die he'll get to our daughter. My heart is breaking