Help me over my big fat wobble

[Littlemissflower]

Stbxh moved out in November, or rather I threw him out after 18 years of verbal abuse. Dc's were devastated for a very short time, but we are all so much happier now.
He only sees them very briefly once per fortnight and of course acts like superdad for the 3 hours he takes them out, they now dote on him.
He us also extremely jice to me when I see him, chatty and always asks how I am. I have had a tough time the last few weeks for many reasons and today he was really nice to me again and after he went I found myself seriously questioning my decision.
Making him leave was the hardest thing I have ever done and I cant beleive I am even thinking like this.
Guess what I need is just someone to tell me I will be okay.

[Littlemissflower]

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  Blasted tablet keypad!!!!

[Duckdeamon]

Don't hate yourself, you were and are not the problem. He was and remains abusive and manipulative and it has affected you a lot. You can see this and continue to make positive changes.

Think the FP can be done online.

[Littlemissflower]

Thanks Duck, didnt realise it can be done online, am going to sign up, think I need to in order to remain strong.