Hi I'm just looking for some advice, our DC was born 18 month ago. Since dc was born we have not been good, I feel like I was unsupported emotionally after the birth. During the birth etc dh was fantastic and really really helped me but then I was in hospital for 9 days, I was awake every hour our dc was in special care I had to go down and feed and comfort also I had to go down to help with injections etc. dh stayed with me at hospital but moaned constantly that he was getting no sleep.... He was going off during the day for hours and coming back he told me he had been for a wank!!!!! Last thing I really wanted to hear tbh?! I remember crying one day because I was tired and stressed in hospital he just ignored me. When we got home he was very hands on helping out etc and we started to get close again but then he started obsessively watching porn and stopped taking an interest in me. I even found him looking at sex workers. I told him that I couldn't cope with lack of sex etc and he promised to stop porn next day I took dc to hospital appointment I came home and he's in bed watching porn. He then said he would stop but still I've saw more and more whenever I go out the house. We only sleep together once a week now and it lasts seconds. We used to be really close but now not. We constantly argue and I tell him I'm unhappy and I don't want this but he just says he loves me and doesn't talk. Why does he stay if he knows how unhappy I am? I'm even on antidepressants because of this. I've saw deleted texts to friends and family when he's obviously been talking about me. I just don't understand him if I'm such a bad person and he has such a bad life why is he here????