I hate to admit this is because of porn....

[TiredAndCantSleep]

I think I've fell out of love with DH. He has a problem (well I think he has he won't admit it) btw I'm well aware men watch porn. When we met he used to watch a lot then said oh no I don't watch it don't need it I told him I wasn't really bothered either way. When I was pregnant he started watching loads of porn and looking at pictures literally every second he got. When I had DS he was still doing it often getting up in the night to wank, he never wanted sex. I asked him to calm down a bit he admitted he was watching porn all the way through our relationship (why lie?) but anyways it was getting ridiculous and I was getting nothing. He said he would stop, I went out to the doctors with DS and I came back and I saw he had been watching it again. 10 mins after saying he would stop. That was over a year ago, he now deletes EVERYTHING. He watches it every chance he gets and completely denies it. At work, in his car, in the middle of the night, when I'm up with the kids, when we have sex it lasts seconds. I've never had a problem with porn ever but now it's took over everything and I just feel inadequate. I don't feel much for the man I once loved and I'm truly miserable. Why the fuck can't he just calm down or admit a problem?

You haven't done anything wrong, he has. But you are looking for reasons to stay with the shit.

You've done nothing wrong. He is doing the wrong things.
Your child won't hate you. Like PP said mine were pretty adaptable and have a good relationship with me and their dad.
If you stay with this creep what your child will see is a dysfunctional relationship.

Thank you everyone for the replies x

If he is willing to accept he has a problem, there are meetings he can attend to address his addiction. Here's the website.

www.slaauk.org/is-slaa-for-me/

How are you feeling today?

Of course you've done nothing wrong, your H has a serious addiction to porn and staying will only serve to make you even more downtrodden and give your DC a bizarre and damaging image of how relationships work. He won't go to counselling, so there's only one option left: you have to get out for your sanity, and as soon as possible.

Call him out. Tell him he's a liar as well as a wanker. Tell him life's too short to be involved with liars or wankers and mean it. Then, treat yourself to something really nice and start looking about for a real man if that's what you want. Someone who will treat you like a queen and give you the love you deserve.
He's too far gone on the porn stuff from what you say. I'd seriously consider calling it a day. And be careful about what he's potentially exposing your children to. Kids are not stupid o/p.