I finished with the man I was the ow for. The advice. On here was deeply profound and allowed me to see the relationship for what it really was- lies and lies, topped with a side order of lies.
He lied saying he was single, he lied again saying they were just living together for financial reasons and probably lied again when he said he was trapped in a loveless and sexless relationship.
Worse than that I lied to myself, I told myself I was who he loved and once things were sorted I would get to be with him.
I met him today and told him I was not prepared to wait for him I grow a pair, I know he has been on dating sites and messaging other women to get a second ow and our relationship is over.
He left after crying and saying he didn't want to loose me and text me later saying he knows I deserve better and that he loves me so much but he will never accept the baby we have conceived and will never be in it's life.
I replied telling him I'm sure I have enough love that our child won't miss out and I promise to be the best mother I can and taise our child well. He responded that I should look after myself and our baby.
I then deleted his number and all previous contact.
It was so hard and I've cried all day but I have to go NC or I will cave.
I feel so sick with morning sickness and I just need a huge cuddle. :-(
I know this is my own fault for staying with him once I found out he was married, I was just so devastated thy everything I thought we had was a huge pile of lies, that come so easily from his lips.
No point to this post really except to just let it all out . X