I've written a few threads about how difficult I've found it to come to terms with end of relationship with exP. We weren't married, living together or had children. We were only together a couple of yrs but he's seriously got into my head & I just can't stop thinking about it all. I guess I'm still a little attached and a lot angry with him, but feel I've never had the chance to tell him how he made me feel at the end ( I'm pretty sure he was having some sort of breakdown, lots of verbal abuse & flouncing out of my house, only thinking about himself & all his problems etc. etc. you know the type...).
Anyway I saw him today & he was all nicely nicely but there was so much I wanted to say, obviously I couldn't as it wasn't appropriate in public! I've composed following text - I really want to send it, but know I probably shouldn't. I don't want him back, I just want acknowledgement of what he did to me.
"It's funny that I bumped into you today, I've been thinking about you a lot as it's two yrs ago this week that we got together. I still don't understand what happened & how you wanted me so much to start off with then treated me so appallingly at the end, when all I'd done was care for you & be there for you through your bad times. You probably don't even realise the damage you did to me & how you shattered my already low self esteem all over again. I know you think you are the only one with problems, but when you are thinking about how much (his ex wife's name) hurt you, please try to understand how much you hurt me & how I still feel almost 5 months on. I hope you find peace within yourself eventually"
What do you reckon?