No I don't have that. I'm not there.
Erm let's remember what I did have - constant bitching and sniping, sneering, jeering; poison arrows that would come from nowhere; knowing looks to each other regardless what I said, on anything at all. Sudden explosions, screaming, punching, scratching: extreme rage. Emotionally seducing my kids, 'saving' them from mad me.
The bottom line is it all worked if I didn't speak, move, move my eyes, show I was in any way I was a cogent human being. The logistics are probably that 'I" was an extreme threat bcs I didn't go along with the family script: which was that the relationships were extremely toxic. From a small child I somehow had a clarity and said when things didn't add up. I was shushed, punished, hit, insulted, ostracised, loathed. I had a lot of emotional distress and low-level mh problems as a result. Hence extensive therapy.
I can just hearing you saying your situation is not as bad as mine. But it is. They constantly assault you with endless attacks: it's ALL YOUR FAULT. Scapegoat. They are desperately sick people and their thoroughly skewed, poisonous, take on life necessitates them emotionally abusing you to the hilt. You have to get it they are SICK PEOPLE. It is highly, highly unlikely they will ever change.
They have made you responsible for their emotional well-being and, bcs they are mad, it is impossible, literally impossible, to make them happy. Except by being a compliant, biddable, malleable plank. You want to reason with them - but you are wasting your breath (and your mental health) to even try. Your situation is severe emotional abuse. They have trained you from a child to be responsible for their happiness, hence your FOG: Fear, Obligation, Guilt. You haven't made them happy bcs you CAN'T. It's not possible.
So don't be there. Step away. Do extensive work on FOG. Get into therapy, you're going to need it. Get into the Recovery community: plenty of us out here. Read Toxic Parents , Susan Forward I think. Other books out there.