I posted a thread last week about how down I was feeling about my life job wise.
Basically I work in a shop part time however I do full time hours but still earn peanuts. I'm trying to better myself with interviews and what not but so far I haven't been successful.
I'm also trying to clear my credit card debt from a previous relationship where I naively helped him out.
Anyway my boyfriend is the complete opposite. He has a fantastic career earning amazing money which he works hard for.
Here's where the issues are.
He's desperate to buy a house and is saving. His parents are also very keen for him to move out. I would also love to do this but unfortunately I'm not able to save a penny until 1) I find a new job and 2) I clear my debts.
But it makes me feel crap about our relationship. I worry that I'm gunna get left behind. I would never hold him back but I just feel like.. I'm not able to buy or save for a house yet so what's the point in being together if he's going to buy his own house? I'm 24 and he's 26. I don't want to move into his house... I'm not that naive. He can have me out at any time and I would have no rights. I've seen it happen to too many people around me. I don't wanna be paying off my boyfriends mortgage I want to be paying off our mortgage.
We have spoken about marriage and kids for in the future (not for a long time yet) which is a good thing.. But what's the point if we aren't even going to buy a house together? Again not his fault, but I don't want to have kids with somebody and live in his house. It wouldn't feel like home.
I'm sorry if this is really rambly or if I sound like a brat that isn't my intentions.
I'm not sure what I'm after really, suggestions/advice.
Think I'm just having a panic!