I spend every waking hour with the children. I have 3 children five years and under. The youngest is 6 months and co-sleeps in my bed and is breastfed. I dont get a minute away from them. Even when I go to the toilet one of them always follows me up. I try take a bath and they are there coming in the bathroom or banging on the flippin door. I am on mat leave at the moment and partner is here every day as he is usually stay at home parent. He mucks in with housework during the day but has to be prompted.
Im just so sick of my life. Im 29 and i feel like im stuck in this crap and i want to scream really f $&#ing loud. He gets to pop in and out during the day to his friends and then goes out most nights to his friends house. Where as i don't have anywhere to go as I have no friends. Even if i did go out i would have to take the baby with me as shes breastfed. Its just so crap. I do the school and nursery pick up and drop offs as he doesn't drive. I feel like i have no one i can rely on. I always have to be strong and just suck it up. Hes on anti depressants and there is just no sex or hardly any. Maybe once every 5 months or so and even then its just quick and no emotion. As soon as its finished hes up and to the bathroom or downstairs. Yes there are cuddles and kisses other times so there is affection normally but the whole lack of sex is just depressing especially as i have a high sex drive. my life is depressing. I just had enough of all this shit. Don't know why im posting but i just need to rant and get it off my chest.