Hi all,
I have been in my current relationship a little under two months (prior to this i was single for a short while after leaving a heavy 4 year relationship). Things are going well between us and strong emotional feelings have developed.
From the beginning I knew he had a DS, nearly 5. Not a problem for me, decent relationship with mother and he sees him
every weekend.
About a fortnight into our relationship, I received a facebook message from his most recent ex. She was speculating that something was going on between us and wanted to let me know that she was pregnant but he wasn't interested. Now, I already knew about this but he had made it very clear that they broke up prior to them finding out she was pregnant, nothing has changed, wants to help out financially but doesn't want to be involved. Whilst I thought it was better for him to take some interest, I accepted his decision and we carried on as normal. Honestly, it was just put to the back of mind.
Long story short, a couple of months later and he's there right now at her scan. He told me he intended to go at 10pm last night because 'the guilt was killing him'.
I cried. A lot. I knew she was having his child, I had come to terms with it. But now I am struggling to overcome these horrible feelings that are building inside of me. I think we can get past it, I want to be a good girlfriend, stick by him and support him but there are also feelings of jealousy and heartache.
Is it normal to feel like this? I don't suppose it happens that often. All I can think about is them together, at the scan, celebrating their baby boy or girl whilst I'm just in the background completely helpless. Is that selfish?
Everything i've read so far has told me run a mile but I think I can cope, I just need reassurance that this isn't the beginning of the end of us.