Had a terrible time over the last couple of years
He lied, cheated, EA.
We had been separated for over a year, but he was still in the house, begging me to take him back.
Then he died tragically, suddenly.
And I have a million emotions
I'm now finding out that the lies, deceit and debts are so much worse
I love him, miss him, hate him.
He was not a good husband, I now don't believe he was ever faithful. Not a good father, by his own admittance, he had zero patience. He was never actually here, did nothing with ds, always out with clients, or others as I've now discovered.
I've done it all for years, well always really.
But the outside world didn't really see that.
The people closest to me know.
But he had so many friends who are devastated.
And then it's just so bloody sad that someone so loved died so young.
And also keeping his memory alive for ds. And helping him through this.
And now my family seem to think i can't do anything alone or I need to move 300 miles home.
My sister seems to have moved in, and I don't want to have to talk even. Let alone deal with cooking for her, or even her food in the fridge.
My house is messier than I would like, I'm trying to organise dh's stuff and paperwork and I can't even find a home for my clothes.
I just want to be left alone to get on with things
No- one is helping
Just adding to the nightmare that I seem to be in
Added to all that, I have peri menopause symptoms and just want to scream most of the time.
Outwardly I'm dealing with this fine, but I just want to scream
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My marriage was over and then my husband died
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Beachday · 23/04/2015 18:02
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