Hi babes, nothing very exciting to report here but I just wanted to wave hello. Still AF and feeling massively better physically and mentally for it. I went for a run today (hadn't run for a week at least) and it was one of those magical runs where I just felt so fit and well. Hurrah! I am determined to attribute the gloriousness of the run to not drinking (even though some of the runs I have attempted since not drinking have been absolutely shite. I'm going to ignore that fact, la la la la la). Hope your run was good, Get!
I love the way the bus keeps going and going and everyone is so encouraging and lovely. What an amazing phenomenon of a bus it is. A big welcome to all the newcomers on board. Bloody, questions or no questions, chances are that if you feel like an alcoholic/problem drinker, you probably are. You could try an AA meeting to see what it's like if you're interested. It's not for everyone (and meetings seem to differ hugely from place to place) but it has helped me loads.
Big hugs to you, joey. It sounds like you've had the day from hell, but it will be all right. Really! Please don't be so insanely hard on yourself. You're only human - everyone loses it sometimes and lashes out in anger and/or bursts into tears. You've already apologised to your colleague, and I'm sure you wouldn't have got so upset without cause anyway. More hugs.
Hugs to you too, ma. Reading about you and your DH makes me so sad. You deserve so much more. Staying with someone because you think they might have a breakdown if you leave is NOT a reason to stay, if you'll forgive my saying so. Anyway.
SmallFox, the longer you go without drinking, the more the desire to drink starts to leave you. At least that's what I'm discovering!
Baby, so sorry you're in pain again. 
Your posts are wonderful though. You sound great. Bravo to you.
Sweet, well done on winging that class! I identify with your posts so much because we're in the same profession and because I also suffer from bad work-related anxiety. That boss of yours sounds like an utter prick by the way. Just ghastly. For what it's worth AA has done more to alleviate my anxiety than anything else has done for ages (hope I'm not sounding like too much of a mad enthusiast mentioning AA twice in one post). I just find the meetings very soothing. And all the cheesy slogans that put some people off Easy Does It, One Day at a Time, First Things First I liked them from the get go. I used to wake up with the most awful stomach-twisting anxiety every single morning. It hasn't completely gone, but now there are lots of mornings when it isn't there at all.
What I'm trying to do now are the same things I've been trying to do for the past 3 months since gettting sober:
- stop binge eating every night. I just consumed half a packet of M&S chocolate eclairs while I was sitting here. They were delicious yum!
- work on my actual research (i.e. my only hope of remaining gainfully employed) instead of letting the teaching and all my other obligations crowd that out
- improve my marriage to the point where there is, gasp, some kind of physical intimacy involved. DH is not a WB but I feel so lonely sometimes
There is lots more including finances but I have already worn myself out with the exertion of typing!
The thing is, I worried about all these things when I was first trying to get sober, and my sponsor kept saying, "Don't worry about anything else. Just don't pick up the first drink." I DID pick up, and pick up again, but slowly, the intervals between picking up drinks became longer. And I felt more and more empowered.
So I still feel angsty about all the different compulsive behaviours and other things in my life that are making me unhappy, but now that I have a clear head, I think I do have a hope in hell of changing one or more of them. Maybe. Just maybe. Which is pretty amazing coming from a woman who used to drink all day every day. 
Hang on in there, babes, we can do it! xx