Ladies I need some advice and please don't judge, I'm scared and confused. I suffer with anxiety attacks, and Emetophobia, although my other half tells me its all in my head.
I have just had an argument with my other half because he called me to say he's gonna be late home from work because he has to fill up, I asked him why he wasn't doing it in the morning like he normally always does. He goes of on one because I've apparently called him a liar. The phone call ends with me putting down the phone and him calling back twice.
He comes home and then starts the silent treatment, eventually breaking it to tell me he's going out to let "me calm down" when I say I am calm its not good enough, he tries to convince me i am not calm with by shouting at me.
Then we get into a conversation, where he's stood by the front door and I'm sat on the bed (flat) and "I'm stopping him from leaving" When he makes his way into the bed room to continue the argument he starts banging his head on the wooden bed frame and calling me a cunt (always does this btw - every time we argue).
I have tried explaining to him in the past I feel bullied by him, because he can never be wrong and it has always got to be someone else's fault, but he just tells me I am the bully. He tells me I treat him like shit, but when I ask how. He refuses to answer saying well if you don't know im not going to tell you.
I am confused. I feel like I cant say anything because it may wind him up, and then I get called a cunt. He tells me my son would be better off if I was dead, or if he lived with his biological father who hasn't seen him since Christmas last year.
I borrowed his bank card once (He handed it too me) but when I got back from food shopping we had another row because he hadn't done the bins his only job he has to do in the whole house, he said he was reporting me for card fraud.
I feel lost and alone, my family think he's a brilliant bloke because he acts so different, when there's an argument he's on the phone to my mum telling her its me, my son loves him,
I'm really confused, I'm starting to question my own behaviour. I'm sorry I'm ranting