The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Kicking The Wicked Wine Witch Where It Hurts! Mwahahahahahahaha!

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Hey, I'm Mouse, welcome to the Bus (aka Gerald!)

We're a mixed bunch of folk, some have been here for a while, and of course we have some new additions too. It matters not one jot how long you travel with us, as long as you get something from it.

No matter your story, your needs, your fears and hopes, you CAN come on here and talk. You can cry, scream, rant, let it all out and not be judged for anything. Ever.

We've all been so very low, some have hit the very bottom of the rock, rubbed the bruising better and picked ourselves back up again but sometimes, you need a helping hand or someone to listen too.....which is why we're here, sharing our experiences, or just reading each other's and nodding as we click along.....

The support here is unconditional. :)

There are two banners down each side of Gerald, our super duper Bus saying -

1. • The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement
2. • Alcohol Fosters Inertia

We have lots of food on board, but mainly Opal fruits!!! They tend to be anything other than green, as they get snapped up vair fast indeed!

If you would like to know a bit more about how we got to where we are today, you can read these threads.

THE PREVIOUS THREAD

THE START OF THE JOURNEY

Hope to see you soon :) x

Day 4 wooop woooop -

Phrase I hope Geraldina is still loop the looping for you - as she gets bigger there will be tidal waves in the bath, such fun Have a good day lovely x

Obrigada Day 6 for you today, keep going honey

Wry thank you for your help with that there mountain climbing Hope you slept like a log, are you working today my darling?

Mouse giving you tight hugs precious one. Please take any RL support that's being offered it's so hard, the memories are my comfort with my Dad. Your Mum wouldn't want you to be sad, I can promise you that. Your Mum lives on in you xxx

Bluebelle thank you for your wise words you are amazing and what a life transformation, toxic friends really rang some bells with me, I have to steer clear of some of my friends when I'm AF, in the longer term I will have to permanently distance myself as there are too many temptations! You are an inspiration

Popcorn Welcome to our lovely Bus. You will get great support on here

Soc I remember the other thread taking the mick out of the Bus Please don't leave, you really are helping me realise that a life AF is possible and I can't thank you enough

Crabby how are you lovely? I hope you feeling a better and more positive

Beaches

Waves are Joey, Guggs, Hope, Nuff, Ma, Rural, Baby, Venus, Eccles, 70 and all you lovely Babes

Have a good day everyone, off to work with me Oldies, God love 'em

70 AWESOME that Smock of Smug is very becoming, have a really good day x

Hi babes, not posted in ages...life suddenly got impossibly busy. Long story short dh has a rental property, it got totally trashed by the tenant, thousands of pounds of damage. As usual when the shit hits the fan it's left to me to sort out :( It's been a nightmare and I've fallen back into the old habit of rewarding myself with wine after a long day or cleaning/sorting repairs, etc....

Day 2 today...love to all, will read back over the weekend and try and catch up

Hi Anne what a nightmare for you . It's Day 6 for me today.

Hi babes, day 4 here, I'm seeing a new councillor today, one connected with my GP. I'm feeling very disconnected from myself. My nightmares are horrendous, I'm tearful, scared of my own shadow, I'm eating nothing or rubbish, I feel shaky and sweaty and mostly scared that this godawful depression will never leave me alone. I keep thinking I'm getting better then I become paralysed with anxiety and tiredness caused by the dreams, then hit the drink for oblivion, then my family get mad at me then I sober up and hate myself and off we go again!!!! I'm so weary, I miss my old self, I miss being happy and carefree, a good mother, a nice person... Sorry just recording my thoughts and hoping to god I can better for good, I'm tired trying!!!! Xxxx

Has anyone else suffered badly with manic depression??? It all started after my dd was born 4 years ago but it led me into this hate affair with wine but every binge is causing me more physical harm, and I mean binge!! Then 6, 7 weeks sober and happyish (always snxious) then I feel the dark side drawing me in, sucking the good out of me, it's bloody baffling!! Sorry me me me x

baby big big big hugs. xxx

Baby my heart goes out to you xx

babyj mouse so sorry to hear about you poor struggling. Don't worry about us, this Bus is going pretty slowly atm anyway.

wry what rampant sex? Who is the 'Big Tasty' that you fancy...?

Big hugs to baby and the wonderful mouse. So good to have you both back on the bus.
popcorn Barrie is used to slap people round the chops with when they are beating themselves up for "failing". We don't do failing on this bus, we just do trying. My triangle is a whole other story....
Bodies to all. I am exhausted. Work is insane, dad very ill, dh worried about heart..everyone needs me. I have to go to London next week for a VERY important meeting. Lovely boss cant go and I am a tad out of my depth. Eek!

Bosies, not bodies!

Oh babes what a lot of 'coping' going on at the moment. We do it because we have to but it sounds very hard for some of you right now. Mouse thanks for checking in, I knew you would be struggling with the anniversary coming up but sad to hear that your knees are hurting too now

ma can't remember which clever Babe said this, but it's so true:

You can't be the anchor for everyone else if you yourself are drowning

Day 5 but it's Friday which is a big trigger night for me I'm feeling strong and quite determined

Joey lovely a Big Tasty is a super burger from McDonalds and they are divine

Wry if I'm going to eat Maccy Dees it's got to be a Big Tasty all the way

Baby I hope the new councillor went well. I'm no expert or Doc or anything like that, have you ever tried writing a dream diary, it may help to re-write what you can remember of your dreams so that you 'get them out of your head' and you may start seeing a pattern and some understanding may come from it. Just a suggestion that could help. Darling I'm on Day 5 today, same as you honey, let's do this together, if you want to. I'm sending you massive hugs and loads of strength xxx

Beaches a big squeeze for you honey x

Anneis welcome back lovely. Sounds like a nightmare, we had the same with Tenants that set up a Skunk factory, they wrecked the house and it cost us alot to put it back to a habitable state I hope you get it sorted soon, will you be renting it out again?

Hope have a good day lovely x

Happy Friday to you all lurking or otherwise

Hello brave babes. i wonder if anyone would be willing to respond to this thread? www.mumsnet.com/Talk/feeling_depressed/a2234449-become-adrift

isabeller just responded, aren't you kind for helping. Xxx

Morning babes, feeling so much better today, saw my councillor yesterday and she said I have an anxiety disorder brought on by PND. She explained that my meltdowns are triggered by anxiety and emotional and physical exhaustion. This is very fixable with the right changes and support.

I need to eat well, get fit and stay sober and with the right medication I WILL recover and this bus will be salvation as always.

Thanks for all your support and warm affection and I will return the favour my lovely friends xxx

Morning everyone, sending lots ot positive thoughts to all of you, especially those having a really bad week

I missed the bus last night, no wine which is what I am trying to escape as that is my true nemesis, however not af. Little steps I suppose, not beating myself in case I get slapped with Barrie! Can guarantee the weekend will not be af too but if I have no wine I'll feel like I've succeeded there at least. I will stop talking about me so much, I promise, I just need to drown out the ww with incessant chatter at the mo.

Morning babes, Day 7 for me today. Baby good to hear you are feeling brighter today. Friday night is always a trigger night for me as it's the end of the working week and as I dislike my job I always feel a bottle of vino helps me shake off the working week but not tonight. Today I will not drink.

baby I am so glad to hear that you're feeling better after seeing your councillor - well maybe not feeling better, but at least with some optimism that you CAN recover

Re the 'Friday Night feeling' - I used to get myself into such a stupid cycle. I would tell myself I deserved a drink at the end of the week, but in reality I drank on a Friday because I knew I wouldn't have to work the next day so I could get really drunk. Then I would spend most of Saturday feeling shit. I'd start drinking as I was cooking Sunday lunch (so well before lunch time) and drink through the afternoon because 'it was the weekend'. I'd end up horrid and headachy by Sunday evening. Then on Monday morning I'd be suffering from all the excesses of the weekend so feeling pretty lethargic and crap and hating my job. Yet kicking myself for wasting the whole weekend and not really doing anything nice. Mostly that would lead me into having a drink as soon as I got home on Monday night. In some ways I found being sober on holiday or at weekends easier - because I could then do lots of other things that made me feel good.

venus I so know that feeling of kicking myself for wasting the weekend! I'm working this sunday so I'm trying hard to convince myself not to drink tonight otherwise that is saturday as a right off, and the weekend over :(

Spanna I think we'll have to rent the property again, houses aren't really selling round here, and we'll go under if we have to keep paying the council tax and mortgage with nothing coming in. I say 'we' but it's not my house, I've just found myself picking up the pieces. I'm trying not to get resentful but I literally wake up in the night furious

Glad you're feeling better baby :)

I hear what you are saying Venus and I know that I have lost / wasted more weekends because of drink and then wondered why I never felt I had a break from work!

Anne, it is hard not to feel resentful.

Hi all. Another one here who will not be drinking this Friday evening

popcorn chatter away. Its why we are here. Is anyone else suffering hot flushes? What the hell can I do to stop them?

ma you tried Anusol suppositories?

But seriously, sage tincture seemed to help me a bit.

at joey. Thread about a thread. Seriously, they really are brilliant for the old Chalfonts!