Hi just to had to post - i have been married 7 yrs to a Muslim man. He was not a practicing Muslim when we met but 2 yrs ago really got into ti. He prayed all the time constantly bored friends so we had no friends, I let him get on with it thinking he would eventually come to his senses. We were very busy last year and frankly grew apart although I did not realise, as I still loved him and still do but also hate him.
He was a very honorable man but now I don't know this man at all. I found out out he was having an affair but worse he married her in a Nikka wedding (no legal status). He told me he met her in March this year, she converted (i never did), she got pregnant at 40yrs old in 3 weeks!, but lost the baby four weeks later, now she has cancer so she needs him. I am too old for children so we have none, my \h is 25 yrs younger them me. He was crying and told me he was just an arse.... but he could not help it he loved her but he loved me more, all this was on holiday away from her. I told him she was spinning yarns not that it matters. I was so shocked but wanted to save my marriage. We came back I asked him was he still seeing her - he said no but I know he is (this was 2 weeks ago). when first home he tried for a few days but now he is totally disassociated with me. He says he promised to take care of my but he is not he is treating house like hotel and gong where he wants, I know he is lonely as he works on his own, I have told him twice if he does not want to be here to go but he stays ,why? he keeps saying he has to earn money so he can pay me back what I have given to his family, I earn 3 times his salary. we live in a house I am bought before we were married still in my name. we also bought 3 other houses from my redundancy and retirement money but I put them in join names. He looks stressed most of the time, he has been using porn sites - I am at my wits end. He talked about going to be
an Imman (takes 5 yrs) and says he will not live probably another 5 yrs. He is now rude but now I have confided in a friend she comes to the house he comes also and is very chatty as if nothing is wrong. I swing from divorce to fear, panic and fell a real loss. I asked did he want a divorce he said nothing, I said i will take that as a yes then again he said nothing, he said he is confused and if he did not love me he could take half of everything under english law., I asked was he staying because he could not afford to live on his own, he replied of course I can afford it. I asked did she accept being second wife he said yes - I said I don't and under Muslim terms need to agree he said he would not have told me had I not found out, then said but I love you more than her. what a mess why cant I make up my mind? Whats in his mind?