Ok, name changed for this
Looks like I will be DTD tonight. I'm usually fine and comfortable with sex, not shy and open to new things.
My problem is going on top which I really want to be able to do, but I can't. I just can't. I just cannot get past the idea that I must look absolutely ridiculous.
Now (I know I must sound like a right stubborn cow) if I chat to a friend about this I often hear "guys really aren't going to notice chubby bits" "you look great from that angle" - I just think, how????? I'm a bit chubby (I wouldn't say I'm technically overweight) but this position is so unflattering for me and so hard to relax in. It's so much effort to constantly be sucking in my belly, I wish I could just not care (I'm not saying there's anything wrong with chubbiness or big bellies by the way, I'm not shy about mine at all, it's just in this particular position) but how is he going to fancy me from looking up, especially my chin which must look so stupid.
I also never know how to move or what to do with my hands. And I want to be able to take my bra off, my boobs are quite big and I do like them, but because they're big they're not perky AT ALL so i just think he's going to struggle not to laugh at me in that postion :(
Any advice or comments very gratefully received, as I would love to be able to do this like normal girls without wanting to cry and I'm desperately nervous about tonight!!
