Please help, my mind (and stomach) churning.

[Elfina]

I'll try and keep it short. I was going to NC but I sort of know I have nothing to be ashamed of. When I was 12, I was abuses by a teacher at school. This lasted for a year, and got pretty bad. A year or so after it ended (he left the school), I spoke about it and he was arrested. I'm not entirely clear what happened next, but I was very unwell with an eating disorder, anxiety and depression. I made a couple of suicide attempts because I was so scared of going to court and seeing him. I think the CPS decided not to pursue the case as I was too vulnerable.

Fast forward 18 years. I don't know what possessed me, but I just googled him, and up he pops. He's the head teacher of a primary school and fucking head of child protection. I don't know what to do. I need to do something. I feel so sick.

The police are passing on my statement to the original force.

OP, my DH has reported similar abuse and the case is going to court at the end of this year. It has been a very tough process but he would definitely say worth it whatever the outcome of the trial.

I'm so sorry this man did this to you. Your description of the trauma you suffered after reporting him as a child is devastating. The strength and compassion you're showing by reporting him a second time is bloody heroic.

You're doing an amazing thing. Look after yourself and thank you for making the world safer for our children.