Please help, my mind (and stomach) churning.

[Elfina]

I'll try and keep it short. I was going to NC but I sort of know I have nothing to be ashamed of. When I was 12, I was abuses by a teacher at school. This lasted for a year, and got pretty bad. A year or so after it ended (he left the school), I spoke about it and he was arrested. I'm not entirely clear what happened next, but I was very unwell with an eating disorder, anxiety and depression. I made a couple of suicide attempts because I was so scared of going to court and seeing him. I think the CPS decided not to pursue the case as I was too vulnerable.

Fast forward 18 years. I don't know what possessed me, but I just googled him, and up he pops. He's the head teacher of a primary school and fucking head of child protection. I don't know what to do. I need to do something. I feel so sick.

Hello, I just wanted to say I think you are very brave. I cannot offer you any advice as such because I don't know what you have been through but my blood turns cold at the thought of my children being at a school run by this man. If I can help in any way at all even as just an ear to hear, please feel free to pm me. Good luck and god bless.

I don't feel brave. It's the thought if those children that's doing this. I wonder whether I should not go into work tomorrow. I don't know wider I'd say to my line manager, though.

It's hard you'll tell who you need to (family etc) in your own time, take it one step at a time, I imagine you feel it your duty to protect others from what you went through and you will, you'll be in shock finding out he got away with it on paper at least as he has a job working with children still, have some sweet tea to help with shock. Years ago when the police didn't do anything about these things I reported historical abuse to NSPCC child protective services, it happened a long time before and hadn't been reported at the time, but I became concerned about other children like you, the NSPCC took it very seriously and investigated it thoroughly, I don't know how the police are dealing with cases now especially with the current high volume, although it might be an idea to report to both. When I reported to NSPCC they counselled me too. Good luck

Nooo it was child protective services with the local council so social services type thing, sorry I have a habit of blocking these things out. But NSPCC do deal with child protection too

Head of child protection! What a nightmare, please report. You poor thing

Hope you're strong enough to report and prosecute.
Disgusting, hope he pays for his crimes.

Thank you. I'm about to call 101 now.

good luck with the phone call. You are very brave

Thanks again. I have an appointment to speak to someone on Wednesday. Will have to wait it out til then.

I think you are very very brave.

You are making the world safer for all of our children, including mine.

Thank you

You are courageous, you really are. You are doing such a difficult thing to try and protect children from what you experienced. As a teacher, I can't emphasis enough how important what you are doing is. The idea of him taking responsibility for child protection is appalling because he is pretending to have a purely professional interest in the details.

Red Room, I hadn't thought of it from that angle (gratuitous); I thought that it would be a hiding in plain sight, type thing.

I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to say on Wednesday.

To my shame I called in sick today. Well, I don't think I was well enough to go in really. Will have to torrid though. Not sure what, if anything, I should tell my line manager.

How did it go today OP?

Thank you for checking in. It was pretty hard. The police officers were both male, which I was really surprised about

You have been incredibly brave and should feel so proud of yourself. You have put the safety and happiness of other children ahead of your very, very understandable fear: that must have been so hard to do

Justthe right bullets, the cps and police forces have continous developments and new policies in which these sorts of cases are investigated. Differenct ofrces do deal with these cases in difrrernt ways. For example further statements folloeing the gaps in iveidence, there must be a background informationstated as to why this psrticulsr new evidencr has come to light. Video evidence is a great source which can be shown to the jury incourt and b3ing visuwl is generally better. A victim inpact statement is a seoerate statement made towardsthe end lf the case. As i said it maynot be your own particular expericence but these policies and procedures can change every month and will vary on force toforce. In any case i really do hope the op reports and helpsnot only herself but slso otthers from having thesame experience, it is an incredibly hard h0thing to go through as you may have a better understanding from a vicitm side (although that is a complete assumption) :)

Juste right bullets you are referring soley to the metropolitan police in reference to the scd2. I am mot about to begin a legal jargon debate with you on MN. That is not what this op is about. I will offer advice and support only.

I'm sure the OP is finding this very helpful and supportive.

Elfina, have been watching this thread, and wanted to comment.
I think you are v brave and are soooooo doing the right thing.
I am coming at this from another angle. I work with offenders. It is shameful when histories are delved into how often things were reported but not progressed/reported, no charges brought/reported but taken as 'heresay'/not reported, but social services report refers to an 'incident.
Admittedly, I work with people who have probably not had the best start in life/have other issues etc, BUT if each 'concern' had been properly logged and acted upon, then they would have been in services much sooner than they were