Couldn't decide where to stick this but here seemed to fit, although feeling depressed might fit too.
Ok most of you know whats going on with me and P, we are splitting up and hopefully (please god) he will be gone in the next week or two.
I though am making this about one hundred times harder for myself by already sort of trying to get involved with someone else, and to make it worse the someone else isn't really interested, well one minute they are and next they aren't, it's the kids that are putting them off I think.
I know him through my friend, he is her cousin. She lives here in Brum same as me and he lives in London. We have had lots of chats on msn and he is all for meeting up at some point but said he can't promise anything else like a relationship or anything. I mean lets face it there are so many obstacles it will probably never ever happen so why oh why am I finding it so hard to accept ??
I spend all day virtually glued to the computer incase he signs into msn, keep my mobile that close to me it may as well be an extra arm and can't sleep for thinking about him.
I am so close to just walking out of here and never coming back it's untrue. I just canot cope with everything that is going on right now, I feel so confused, upset and miserable.