I found out a week ago that my husband has been sending flirty texts back and forth with a woman at work. I confronted him straight away and he seems absolutely distraught that it has happened, saying it never went any further. he says it was a moment of weakness with a woman he has worked with/been friends with for a number of years. I have only seen him cry once in our eight year relationship and when we discussed all this he cried his eyes out, as did I. So part of me wants to believe him.
He is my best friend and I am his, we have a four year old son, I'm lost without him.
But the trust is gone and I don't know if it can come back. I don't know what to do, every time we're both at work I can't stop thinking that he's in the same building as her. I want to give him a chance but I'm so incredibly hurt. I'm making this sound like I'm a weak little thing following him about but I sometimes feel like I just want to throw myself under a train just so the pain will stop. I've told him this and he is very worried about me, but I keep fantasising about ways to die and that scares the shit out of me.
What do I do?