Think it's over

[monkeytrousers]

What a surprise eh? It's never recovered since the 2/1 fiasco. We've been in our new house 3 weeks and he's been in the attic room for the last week.

I pushed it, wanted to get all the crap out, see if there was anything left under it and thinking it would leave room for something new to emerge between us but the opposite has happened.

We'll be staying in the house with DS for up to a year, sleeping seperatly, but keeping the split to ourselves. He's ging to try and make enough money to set himself up somewhere during this time.

I just can't be arsed to 'demonstrate' how upset I am Sobernow, or force myself into some public mouring suit. I love my little boy, I'd love my man if he wasn't so stupid. It's not my bloody problem, it's his! (Tipsy now can you tell?)

Too right, MT.

I was thinking about your son.

I'm a mum to two daughters. I sure do hope that, if they are heterosexual, they find a partner who's man enough to show his human side.

What's so wrong and needy about wanting that in a partner or spouse?

I've done a lot of living, not all of it good, and I can firmly say that there ARE plenty of folks out there for whom showing how they feel isn't a big deal.

And if they're not heterosexual, I hope they find a girlfriend who's able to express herself as a person!

Damn, it's not that hard, it's sort of our nature and that.

Okay, this is a bit of an odd request but for those who have the time and like reading can you take a look at this?

It's a short story from Tolstoy called Family Happiness. I read it about a year ago and it helped at the time to reconcile me to the fact of the dwindling intimacies between me and DP.

It took me about a week, I read a chapter online a day. The chapters aren't too long.

I suppose I'm just wondering of I settled to too less, if you see what I mean.

But it did ring a lot of bells for me, about the relistic expectations we have in relationships today, about how that weight of expectation comes from the media mostly, that there are 'models' all around us for us to compare ourselves and our relationships too and they mostly always comeup short and contribute to a feeling of dis satisfaction.

Anyway, the link is here

Don't let the religious thing put you off when it's loading, that wasn't there when I read it, I think it's just an ad.