Feeling down and taken for granted so conducting a social experinment

[soontobeslendergirl]

Just feel that if I didn't do anything then it wouldn't happen. Taken for granted and not appreciated or loved.

So, I decided two days ago that I was no longer going to initiate conversations with my OH. Whenever I do, every response is negative. If he speaks to me or asks anything then I will reply perfectly normally but I'm deliberately not carrying on the conversation.

As a result we must have spoken about 5 words to each other.

If you had a medical issue, you wouldn't hesitate to tell a dr would you?

Luckily I have very good health, I have been to the Drs probably about a dozen times in my life - I didn't go to the dentist for 20 years (I went back and needed one filling!)

At the moment I just feel confused and upset and tired - I think I need a bit of time to re-stock and have a think about what I actually want as I'm not really sure.

I also have a lot I need to do to get the boys organised for going away - I can't just choose to opt out of life - I just feel I have a lot on my shoulders - once the boys are away I'll have more time to think.