Evening, tis me, Mouse :)
A MASSIVE thank you 
to you all for your positive vibes and well wishes for today. Long story short, after keeping us waiting for over 2 hours, they decided NOT to do his MRI or his CT Scan because he is a grade 3/4 intubation (high risk and difficult basically, should they need to put a tube in his throat to help him breathe like during an operation) and that giving him sedation (that he's had shed loads of in the past) would be too risky, even though if he woke, they'd bring him out of the scanners. 
I. AM. LIVID! 
They have his notes, they know all about him, they have a full and extremely detailed history, I give them updates each time we go.
So they should've been prepared. They didn't even know what he was having done when booking in!
They weren't prepared at all. We drove a 3 hour round trip for a 5 min kidney scan that we won't know the results of for months. DH took a day off work, Nemo a day out of school, I was up worried and anxious for him, scared that they'd find more things wrong..... And we have to do it all again.
There is going to be fireworks tomorrow.
Welcome to the new Babes who I don't think I have said hello to yet - Crotch, SweetL, Millie2013, Marvellous, ItsTheOnlyWay, BabyStepsx, Libertine, Casa, LookingForHope, Noodles, Dancer, PurpleS and anyone else! :)
PurpleSmurfette - I really hope you don't mind lovely, but I'm going to have to call you PuprleS or Smurfette if that's okay because we have a Purple already and I'll get sooooooooooooo confused!!
(BTW - If you are lurking HAPPY BIRTHDAY PURPLEWOLFE!! 
xxx )
Beaches - hello lovely, I loved, loved, loved that list, I really did.... it's so great watching the days rack up, day after day after day :) One Day At A Time.
Spanna - I haven't read back properly but I hope you're okay? xxx
Why - how is that gorgeous boy of yours? I'm so very sorry for not being around for support, how are things? I saw the SW called you a lovely name With a bit of luck, that particular SW will get genital warts on their face. 
I'm - hey Mrs, how are things with you? Are you safe? How are the DC?
Someone mentioned dreams..... when I first stopped drinking every night, I had the most bizarre, vivid and to be honest rather bloody scary dreams at times.
I put it down to the fact that I was going to sleep (with the aid of Zopiclone) instead of passing out pissed and off my face, waking at 3am to pee, dripping in sweat, feeling like shite, shaky, wandering across the landing to the loo, gasping for water and then trying to get back to sleep knowing that I was getting up in another 4 hours....
That is of course, assuming that Nemo slept. Which he didn't and still doesn't. So dreams like that, on top of broken sleep was no fun at all!
I found that after a few AF days, things started to settle but if you are going to be AF then you have to STAY AF. Easier said than done. I know.
A quick update with The Mouse House, Christmas and NY were hard, not talking to my mum was dreadful on Christmas Day, the same on NY, it's my Dad's Birthday tomorrow and mine on Tuesday next week, as is Ma's I do believe? I'm sure I share my B/Day with at least one Brave Babe?
I'm not drinking to numb my emotional pain, I'm not drinking to blank out losing my mum, I'm not drinking on a regular basis, but I drank over Christmas, with dinner, and NYEve, but that's it.
I have to say that I am VERY proud of myself 
for NOT going straight back to my default setting of numbing the emotional and physical pain (Nemo is not sleeping so my pain levels are sky high) with vodka :)
Grief is a horrid, nasty and twisted thing, a very close friend told me that she knew that I was wearing a mask almost, still being a mother, carer, wife, etc, but that I wasn't grieving because I felt I had to carry on my many roles........ as if I wasn't 'allowed' to grieve.
She asked me to stop, STOP, be, stay and just think of her hands held out. So many miles apart, but she was there, holding my hands and I could feel her. :) Thank you dear friend, you know who you are xxx
You guys are amazing and I hope that those just starting out on your AF journeys can get to where you want to be. Even if you do 1 day, then 2, then 3, then 4 and fall off the Bus, get the hell back on! Seriously, the seat you have is yours! One day less a week is better than none.
Nothing is stopping you stopping, but YOU.
This Bus is full of support, advice, coping techniques for those who need them, sources of info but most of all, it's full of people who are alike.
Cyclical drinkers, sober posters, ex drinkers, those who are moderating, those who are drinking....... at any one time, we have ALL been where YOU are now.
Let's make 2014 a year of many wonderful success stories on this lovely Bus called Gerald!
BTW, who has the opal fruits? Where is Barry, who's driving and when did Gerald have his winter check up?
Off to put the boy to bed and then I'll be back, sorry for the epic post