That sums is up really. I'm sick and tired of it all.
I don't normally post on here but last week someone posted about her partner taking naked photos without her consent and it struck a nerve. I found myself posting about my situation and since then I have thought about nothing else.
My story is long and spans the last 3 years. It involves his disgusting use of porn, his fetishes and him posting naked photos of me on a dating site and conversing with men, pretending to be me. The explicit nature of those messages was disgraceful and If I hadn't found out, purely by chance I imagine he would still be doing it.
That along with the emotional abuse and the nastiness has killed any feelings I once had for him. He talks to me like dirt, treats me like shit and I'm done with him.
I'm exhausted, fed up and feel like a fool. I really need a kick up the backside to get away. I know life would be better without him but I don't know why I can't bring myself to leave.
It doesn't help that I have 2 children from my marriage ( he had an affair after being happily together for 16 years, left me with a 4 year old and 9 month old as he realised family life wasn't what he thought it would be). I have also had a child with this poor excuse for a man.
What kind of man puts his partner on a dating site while she is busy caring for their 6 week old baby and critically ill mother who was on life support? A I said earlier in my post there is so much more to my story but I can't bring myself to write it all down.
I want out of here by the spring, just got to figure out how!