The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Kicking The *Wine Witch* Into Touch, Because Enough Is Enough!

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Hello, tis me, Mouse :)

This is a thread for those who are worried about their drinking habits towards alcohol, or/and drugs.

Even if you think that you are drinking more tonight than last night or this week than last, come and have a chat, find a seat, we don't bite!

We are a supportive Bus, full of very different posters, from various backgrounds. Some of us drink in moderation, allowing ourselves the odd glass or two as a treat, or just because we're in control of our drinking for that day.

One Day At A Time.

We have those who abstain completely, and those who wake every day to Day 1 and hope with all of their hearts that they can, and will, make it to Day 2.

If you've followed our journey to date, you'll know who most of us are by now :) and we kind of have two 'sayings', that sum up who we are -

1. • The Vulnerable Need Our Support, Not Our Judgement
2. • Alcohol Fosters Inertia

That said, we will not have any bashing of support groups, such as AA or Community Support Teams or even your own GP.

This Bus is a place for honesty, sanctuary and safety, something that has taken four years for a number of very special, very lovely, very honest and caring Babes to establish.

So, come find a seat, grab something warm from the supply cupboard at the back of the Bus as it's going to be cold tonight! Brrrr!

And, if you'd like to read back over some of our history, HERE IS THE LAST THREAD

And, HERE IS WHERE IT ALL BEGAN

We hope to meet you soon :) xxx

This - you're kicking ass and I frickin love it! Just wanted to say that! Sorry. You are so brave! Keep posting xxx

Indie Well done, I'm following in your footsteps with another AF (by the skin of my teeth) weekend. I will be alone in a hotel room tonight as well. Hi all babes sorry not to have been around lately, I've been getting ready for my job which starts today. Catch up soon x

Morning lovely ladies boing boing boing what a difference 6 days makes not been AF this long since August! So glad I didn't go the shop for wine last night got through it by the skin of my teeth and with the help of you lot thanks to everyone x

Ladam Best of luck on your new job today. Hope it all goes swimmingly.

This - Well, done, you've come such a long way. 6 days is awesome!

Joey Sorry to hear you've had to cope with DH's anger problems. My XP had passive aggressive tendencies. It took me a long time to realise I was taking the responsibility for trying to circumnavigate any instance that would make him stressed/angry - whether that was me telling the children off before they annoyed him or rushing to sort the printer out before he chucked it out the window or cossetting him in social situations to try and prevent him feeling left out. Sort of protecting him but at the same time - stressing myself out too. I stopped being his 'shield' and let him put up with his own problems and anger - but this was only after a councillor explained the 'passive aggressive' stuff and when I realised that I actually was going to leave him. Sending a hug. x

Lovely Mouse, I hope your pain is easier for you today. You have so much to put up with and it really doesn't seem fair. Is Nemo back at school today? x

The Bushcraft day on Saturday was amazing! 6 hours in the woods - and no rain - 18 adults and 18 children!! I had had visions of me floating around with my camera, catching wonderful shots of my children's activities whilst they were supported by one of the days helpers. It soon became clear that I was my DC's helper - we were Team Purple!! We built a shelter (with a bit of guidance), made a campfire (after a masterclass from the guy running the day) without the use of matches (something I've never done and didn't think I could do!) and cooked the beans for the whole group's lunch on our fire! Responsibility!! (Could have been worse, one family got to cook the sausages!) We also cooked baked apples in the embers! Delicious! Had thought about inviting XP but so glad I didn't - I would have stood back and let him get on with the 'difficult' stuff. As it was, I felt fantastic that (without a bloke) we'd done amazingly and did our bit for the whole group (only one other Mum and child group and they didn't cook anything). The children had such a good day that when the 6 hours were up they didn't want to go home. DD had a bit of a hissy fit (she'd been out late the night before) but came and apologised after about 10 mins and we were able to move on happily. We were knackered but bloody pleased with ourselves on the drive home. A real team. And, I did get some great photos and the guy who runs the course wants to use them on his new website.

Hi to all, sorry not to NC, and good luck to everyone. x

Day 6 first sober weekend since the beginning of August :)

Day 6 first sober weekend since the beginning of August :)

Good luck with your new job ladame x

Me too Annie feels great :)

Day 4

Rather chuffed that I didn't drink last night (although to be fair, my main reasoning was that I wasn't well, wouldn't enjoy it and therefore it would be a waste of good wine )

It really helped to just come on the Bus and think it through. I took some Kalms, tried not to panic about work, and spouted some Desiderata at DH

Hi all,

Isinde it is all about the sleep for me too, lovely deep and restful sleep (actually almost dead I think!). The recently seen term 'drinkers dawn' is one of the worst parts of heavy drinking.

Purple love your descriptions of the bushcraft day, sounds like you had a great family adventure. How are you feeling about today?

Well done Annie and This, day 6, just one day away from a whole sober week!

joey I love desiderata and have it pinned to my fridge. Not that I am a new age loony you understand

Good luck on your first day ladame

Happy thoughts to you all xx

Mine was usually more like 4am and involved a groggy semi-awareness then the racing heart/background pounding head/many self punishing thoughts.

It sounds (and is) vile but it seems to fade away somewhere after breakfast until it is completely forgotten by wine o clock. Well NOT this day. I like the groggy semi-awareness without the other stuff

So good to hear you enjoying not drinking isinde

isinde DH not impressed with the New Age loony act - I shall try singing "Kum-by-ah" to him, see if that helps

purple what a fantastic day you had by the sound of it! Wish I did more like that, but I'm so fucking lazy

beaches I also sleep badly when drinking (didn't used to, it just crept up the last few years) but as you say, somehow it is forgotten by the time evening rolls around again. It's something I really have to work at - even when sober, I tend to stay up late - god knows why - for some reason I just HATE going to sleep.

Well I'm not drinking today.... I had money this morning and kind of blew the lot on Xmas gifts for the dc left my self silly skint kind of accidentally on purpose iykwim sure it's the only way I don't drink right now if I have zero funds
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How's everyone getting on? Sorry I'm not very good at name checking day 6 going well feeling well I think this time is defo going to be my time ! Sorry for self observed post

Obsessed * even

Babes! Hope you're all doing well. I'm worse than ever, no sympathy - entirely my fault. Chose to drink all day instead of working, continuously make that choice despite having deadlines coming up, a 3 year old and a poorly parent. Well done to all of you doing well, I keep lurking here from time to time and your progress is very encouraging
I will join you one day, will probably have to hit rock bottom first. Just want to drink all day, cry and listen to music. Love to you all keep it up! Xxx

Mew I was in that place just 6 days ago and believe me if u can just get passed day one things will get better wen I was drinking all day I was merely existing now I'm living! You can do it with our support make tomorrow yor day1 keep posting and we will get you through it hour by hour big hugs xx

Mew I was in that place just 6 days ago and believe me if u can just get passed day one things will get better wen I was drinking all day I was merely existing now I'm living! You can do it with our support make tomorrow yor day1 keep posting and we will get you through it hour by hour big hugs xx

Epic fail again
Now that indie is on the bus, I'm a lonely disgrace in the sidecar.

Evening, tis me, Mouse

A HUGE, GIGANTIC, MASSIVE, WELL DONE!!!!

Every single Babe who kicked the Wine Witch into the arse end of nowhere today, yesterday, and for the days before that! I am SO PROUD OF YOU ALL!

Reading how well This and Annie have made me realise that the support of this Bus (and all who ride on the wonderful Gerald ) has supported me more than ever before over the last few weeks as I've actually been very stressed and not realised just how much until my friend said how thin and low I looked.

When I sat and thought about it, I realised that I hadn't stopped of late and maybe it's some time for me.

Plus, I've actually been craving vodka again (default setting) which is not a very good thing at all.

I'm my own worst enemy..... I say I'm okay, fine, 'just tired' etc but I'm like a swan, serene and calm on the water, peddling like mad below the levels anyone can see to stay afloat.

Today,I realised I really do need you all and this Bus, the posts to read to know it's not just me!

Sorry to be posting such a negative post, my day started so productively....... and now I want to go to bed,rest my aching hips and back and sleep for hours until I feel free from whatever's building up.

Keep posting babes, be sober, and try with all of your might to stay sober!!! You're doing such a tough thing, giving up an addiction, fighting an addiction, a habit that's held onto you for years...... with or without you knowing or maybe admitting it. It's an old friend, a member of the family you're passionate about maybe......

I'm rambling now, sorry.

Mew, I've just got in from work (eek!). but wanted to say..... I know that feeling, not during the day, but, at night, just wanted to have a drink, listen to my music, and switch off!
But, it doesn't switch you off really, a largo glass of wine, starts to make you feel better, but, then re-scinds all the nice stuff, and leaves you feeling horrible.
Don't do it tomorrow, sweetheart, if you can, you don't have to hit rock bottom, you can go up!!

Sorry, bit of a quick post, but, also, a bit sad (I think it's me!), about being called "fluffy" on the other thread, shouldn't have read it really. Oops is this crossing the guidlines? Fantastic thread, but, I'm at home here.
Lots of love
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Ma, Mouse, just xxxxxxxxx