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Anyone else live with a hoarder?

273 replies

WhenSheWasBadSheWasHopeful · 30/06/2013 15:30

Dh is a lovely man and I am very lucky to have him but the hoarding is driving me crazy.

He has the ability to clutter a room within seconds. When we moved into this house the agreement was the loft room is his to use as he pleases (ie fill with useless shit).
He struggles to throw anything away, is a world class procrastinator and seems to see the value in every bit of tat and random item of paper work imaginable. Any hint that I may organise or heaven forbid throw something away is extremely stressful for him.

What really pisses me off is that if we have people round they must not be allowed upstairs incase they see his ever expanding messy hoard. Why is it ok for me and dd to put up with this but others can't be allowed to see it?

Grrr. Anyway we are making small amounts of progress tidying up and he is even ebaying some stuff.

Is anyone else in the same boat?

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BearsInMotion · 01/07/2013 20:14

God, this thread could have been written by me. DP has OCD and hoards recycling. Am not coping well - we are talking about dc2, which can only happen if we have more space. And yet, there are always excuses :(

I worry for DD, she won't be able to bring friends home because of the clutter :(

katieks · 01/07/2013 20:48

Oh dear, self-confessed hoarder right here. Drives my husband loony. Lots of fights about my 'crap'. Worst thing is we have moved about 4 times in the past 2 years (don't ask) and everytime we've moved it too. The one time he did lose it, with me crying, he drove a washing machine (which had a fault in that drum wouldn't spin but otherwise fine!) and radiator to the dump. Also, gave a whole box of my textbooks away to charity because I had too many (and hadn't got round to selling them on Ebay).

But seriously, I love my stuff and know exactly when he's got rid of something. The only thing I regret is the amount of time my stuff takes up sorting,tidying, rearranging...

Our study and dining room are out of bounds to guests...too untidy.

Be nice to the hoarders out there...they are people too. I got it from my mum (she's worse than I am and she learnt it from her dad who was a proper hoarder-holic)

Phineyj · 01/07/2013 20:53

The connection between hoarding and OCD is really interesting. I hadn't seen that clearly before.

ImTooHecsyForYourParty · 01/07/2013 20:55

Can I ask what would happen to a hoarder if they say, went on holiday for a fortnight and came back and someone had cleared everything out of the house and thrown it away?

Would they feel liberated or would it trigger an emotional collapse?

BearsInMotion · 01/07/2013 20:59

Hecs, emotional collapse here, complete betrayal of trust in whoever was involved. If it was me, my family, his family, the relationship would be over.

LeGavrOrf · 01/07/2013 21:10

Bloody hell carpe your posts have really resonated with me.

I lived with my gran as a child and she was a terrible hoarder. The whole house as full to bursting with clothes, bags of crap, boxes of old china, plastic, packaging, defunct lightbulbs, wires, old tellies, the lot.

The downstairs was just a plain old mess with stuff in piles, cupboards full to bursting. But the bedrooms (6 bedroom house) and landing, cellar, loft, everywhere was full of piles of rubbish. We couldn't have people around, if someone knocked on the door we had to hide. She was embarrassed at the mess but conversely flew into a rage if anyone mentioned it. Nothing could be thrown away. Then sometimes she would want to hunt for something obscure and would go into a manic whirl of hysterical activity, looking for things in rage and when she couldn't find it lash out. It was awful to live with.

I left when I was 16 and only went back when she died, the house was full of the same piles of stuff. It made me feel ill to see it all again 15 years later.

It has made me into the opposite, and like carpe when I feel anxious I go into a flurry of throwing things away. I can't stand stuff, my house looks like a lab because I can't bear 'things' anywhere. I don't have any emotional attachment to things at all, and I have to bite my lip when loved ones want to keep perfectly normal things for sentimental reasons. When dd leaves home I can see myself packing and selling up and getting rid of everything. Which i think is equally abnormal to have these feelings.

It's a horrible thing to live with hoarders. I do understand though that you simply cannot throw things away, hoarders don't see these things as objects, they are things with a purpose, or a history, or a value. I have no idea what the solution is but I imagine it is as complex and difficult as any other mental illness to resolve, and I don't really think people can be cured, just learn to live with it.

jeansthatfit · 01/07/2013 21:37

deste, really interesting post - and a good response to all of the 'why don't you just throw it away?? comments.

If a professional decluttering service is aware they cannot deal with hoarders who are not receiving psychological help, then I'm even more convinced that partners can't really help or sort it out.

on a personal level - as my dp went through 15 odd years of chronic depression refusing to go for counselling or therapy, just taking ADs, then I don't see him going to talk to someone just because things are a bit messy (his view) and he hasn't had time (ever) to sort it out....

WhenSheWasBadSheWasHopeful · 01/07/2013 21:44

Can I ask what would happen to a hoarder if they say, went on holiday for a fortnight and came back and someone had cleared everything out of the house and thrown it away

I agree with bears total emotional collapse.

carpe I was a bit saddened by you saying shame is such a terrible thing. You are of course right. At the moment shame is the only thing that keeps our house looking like a house and not a storage facility.

I feel bad that I have to use shame and humiliation to get time to tidy up and get rid of stuff but there really isn't any other way. He won't address the underlying cause.

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CarpeVinum · 01/07/2013 21:51

Can I ask what would happen to a hoarder if they say, went on holiday for a fortnight and came back and someone had cleared everything out of the house and thrown it away?

Would they feel liberated or would it trigger an emotional collapse?

Not liberated.

Violated. Betrayed. Invaded.... those are nearer the mark.

I once empited the kitchen, cleaned everything. Real proper old fashioed scrubbing. Put everything back in order and chucked only the purest crap.

I am talking butter wrappers stored for the purposes of greasing (for a very very long time), very out of date food, empty cartons in the fridge, baking tins rusted through becuase of a leak in the sink cupboard next to their cupboard, and some utensils where the handles had split/snapped rendering them not only useless, but actually dangerous.

I might as well have murdered her first born (myself) based on the reaction.

Stupidly I had done it becuase she blamed me for all the mess. Had done since I was young enough to remember. And this started well before her slightly clutteryness went full blown hoarding. On that occasion there had been a row, she accused me of never lifting a finger, so I tried to make things right. Except I made them more wrong.

Sometimes can feel a bit like living on quicksand overlaying a volano in an earthquake zone in terms of predictability. The mixed signals can cause you a mis step even if you thought you knew the rules, but then ... in the face of blame and guilt you think you didn't understand right so go with the spoken words not the sub text and the history...it can get confusing.

Don't get me wrong, I am far far far from ever having been a perfect daugher, I know I'll have contributed in some way to the mess, to the pain that caused the hoarding to swell out of control, and I helped wrong or I didn't help right regualrly and often. But half the time I didn't really know which way was up.

It has taken an awfully long time of distance to get any clarity. And I'm well. Which gives me a distinct advantage over her. I'd immagine in her head there would have been a tornado of conflicting emotions all pulling her in different directions at once.

I think there are times when you just have to go in and clear. If there are children living in unhygenic or dangerous conditions the line has to be their wellbeing over the person's connection to their hoard and their grief and horror if it is stripped away. But unless it is that sort of back against the wall sort of thing, best not to go behind backs and create a fait accomplis.

Not least becuase all a huge clear put does is create a vaccum that the person who hoards rushes to fill. If a mass clear has to be forced for the sake of other occupants it really needs to be done with phycological support on standby for the aftermath.

CarpeVinum · 01/07/2013 21:54

I feel bad that I have to use shame and humiliation to get time to tidy up and get rid of stuff but there really isn't any other way. He won't address the underlying cause.

Love, if all you have is a hammer, bang bang bang.

It's not like you can afford to be picky given the lack of range of stratagies on the table.

It would be nice if more postive and "healing" stuff fell like manna from heaven. Until that happens, all anybody can do is the best they can with the limited resources that actually work.

CarpeVinum · 01/07/2013 22:09

We couldn't have people around, if someone knocked on the door we had to hide.

Doorbell Dread.

That one is almost universal amoung people who have lived in a hearding situation.

I watched my 12 yo sister have her first panic attack because somebody knocked on the door and could see her outline through the wavy glass cos the usual cunning cover of a sheet had been knocked down due to a pile falling. She couldn't join in the "pretend we are out" thing, and just ...stopped breathing right.

clutterhoarder · 01/07/2013 22:11

I feel like my hoard holds my memories.

I pick up something and it triggers memories.

My memory is poor so my hoard stops me from forgetting.

My mum was devastated that my nan gave her old things away. She'd moved out and got married and was told to take everything she wanted, my nan got rid of some of what was left. My mum hoards. She hoards everything.

I used to bin my stuff and my mum would fish it out of our bin. It would then eventually turn up again in my bedroom. I learnt to dispose of stuff via charity shops or other peoples dustbins.

My mum seemed to view my things as hers - she would lend or give away my prized possessions to cousins, nieces, nephews and I'd be lucky to get them back. She has no concept that what she was doing was hurting me - yet she never forgave nan for getting rid of her things.

So my hoard holds memories for me yet mum's hoard seems to be trying to find uses for things rather than throw them out.

Crumbledwalnuts · 01/07/2013 22:13

Bonfire.

Crumbledwalnuts · 01/07/2013 22:16

Ebay makes things worse - people think oh I could get a fiver for that, someone will pay 20 quid for that etc etc and they never get round to it. So it sits there hiding stuff you actually need and want to use, but can't find.

clutterhoarder · 01/07/2013 22:18

My more ordered memory clutter has this last year turned into random clutter with items that I think will be useful 1 day.

I have turned into a hoarder like my mum.

CarpeVinum · 01/07/2013 22:25

Ebay makes things worse

I fucking hate Ebay. Won't use it on purpose.

The whole hoard was shipped here from the Uk on the premise that Ebay existed so that liberted her from the sell now or let go of olden times. And it was all "worth lots".

Although if it hadn't been Ebay,it would have been something else probably. Like Craft. Craft can excuse the existance (and transportation for a thpusand miles or more) of any old crap.

I dread to think what Hoard 2.0 looks like with Pinterest adding to the encouragment that everthing and anything can have "re purpose and upcycle" value if you can find a heavily optimistic picture to justify it.

onefewernow · 01/07/2013 22:51

"I love my stuff ... And the only thing I regret is the amount of time it takes to sort ..."

Not the husband driven nuts.

For others, not the panic attacked child.

Surely this isn't on? Nobody, but nobody, would consider this amount of self obsession reasonable from a gambler or alcoholic. The problem is understandable, but the refusal to see or address its negative impact on others is not.

katieks · 01/07/2013 23:10

Kiddies too small to have panic attacks, husband...fair enough, but he has his vices. I don't keep stuff to annoy him, I keep stuff because in a way it makes me feel better.

I am not that bad though (think 4 pushchairs in the garage, a spare cot and moses basket in dining room and then five boxes clutter 'awaiting Ebay'). I am happy to part with stuff that I know is going to a good home or going to be used. What I don't agree with is throwing away perfectly good stuff. Charity shops are OK, but to some degree I feel if it'll sell in a charity shop then maybe I should try and sell on Ebay (vicious circle).

katieks · 01/07/2013 23:11

And I know it's annoying and a problem, I would love to have a show home...

AuroraAlfresco · 01/07/2013 23:18

Shame is such a negative force. What little energy that remains stands a poor chance against great waves of despising yourself for not being able to do what other people see as "just".

Precisely, Carpe. Tidying and organising comes so naturally to so many people. I sometimes can't get over the fact that I'm a grown woman and just can't bloody do it properly.

Whoever mentioned upthread about buying their DF a CD player he never used really struck a chord with me. I helped my DM buy a laptop almost 2 years ago now. It was at her instigation, though I was also very excited at the prospect as I thought it would open up whole new worlds to her. However. After one abortive attempt at getting a Virgin, or whoever (can't remember) engineer out to do the necessary to get the internet up and running in her flat, when she was horrified to realise he needed access to her bedroom to a connection point and refused to allow it, she has never again got round to getting someone else out. Even though we now know it's possible to get hooked up just from a point in the hall - no bedroom access necessary. I know (unspoken but obvious) that I'm simply not "allowed" to mention her laptop again, so it's sitting there gathering dust, and again, she refuses to accept any help.

The difference between her and the other poster's DF, though, it that she would never shout at me about it or tell me to shut up, thank goodness. That really sucks Sad

Lioninthesun · 01/07/2013 23:24

I am a little worried about this - especially after a friend commented that after watching Hoarders she immediately thought of me and what I would be like at 80...
Like a poster upthread it started when my mum died and left her house full of antiques and items from around the world to me (only child). I spent my childhood in boarding school and my mum and I became quite distant, but I had huge amounts of respect for her despite her evident problems with alcohol. I think when she died she became a bit idolised. I have a fear of getting rid of her trinkets. She used to go on about how I wasn't to sell anything as it was very valuable and only one of it's kind in the world etc, etc. I have sold some of the larger furniture but have huge amounts all over my house. Sadly I now feel I don't know my own style as nearly everything in my house is hers. Friends have suggested paying for storage but I feel I should be using it and not wasting money on new tables/wardrobes/pictures/rugs. I also have a bit of a 'well it may come in handy' streak, possibly because my grandmother was one of my main carers and was a big Make Do & Mend type. My craft cupboard for DD is full of things I think might look good stuck on boxes to become a robot or something i.e useless crap that I think I would possibly be perfect for some unidentifiable situ in the future I have tried to control it all but actually find when I throw something out I DO need it usually within 2 weeks and get all angry at myself for choosing that time to bin it, after it had lurked happily for years.
All sounds a bit mad really reading it back!
Anyway I am going to be moving in 4-6 months and have this image of a relatively modern and calm atmosphere. I wanted to de clutter and feel this new place was mine and not a mausoleum to my mum. Now am starting to freak out a bit as everything I look at I see charm/character that can't be replaced by new things and feel a bit lost as to what to do.
Sorry for ramble. OP struck a chord and wondered if sharing would help see another side.

Lioninthesun · 01/07/2013 23:26

P.S with soduku, can you cut them out of the paper and chuck the rest away?
eyes pile of vouchers on hall table she keeps meaning to go through and sort

Sparkyduchess · 01/07/2013 23:38

oh god, this whole thread has had me jumping up and down.

DH is a hoarder. Not as bad as some (no large objects of furniture in hallways), but bad enough that his 'office' is a box-room with a little gap in the middle where he can sit, and the 'study' downstairs has been a storage area for the 15 years we've lived here. Other rooms are cluttered, but he moves things up to his office when I get fretful.

He knows he has a problem, and I do think it's a mental health issue on a par with OCD.

We both understand why he's like this - he grew up with nothing, and he worries that if he throws something away he might need it in the future. The fact we could replace it is something he knows rationally, but doesn't really get iyswim. He also attaches enormous emotional importance to things.

We have a skip on the drive at the moment, as we want to clear the 'study' so that 14 YO DS can use it for Xbox, having mates over, etc - really good use of the room, yes?

We've been talking about it for 3 years. This is the 6th skip - we've filled the others with 'stuff' from other areas of the house. He spent yesterday afternoon clearing the study, and I know that every single trip to the skip hurt.

It has to be done, and I'm immensely proud of him for actually throwing things away. So is DS - he's realised that DH has a problem, and was like a one-man cheerleading band yesterday.

It's just such hard work. I have never and would never bin any of DH's stuff - even the shiny jacket that he wore when we first went out together, and he keeps in the fond hope that it'll fit him again (it won't), and that he'll look great in it (he won't - it's 20 years out of date). But he keeps it, because it's good quality, and well made, and maybe one day it will fit just right.

And that sums up everything else he keeps. I just keep gently pressing him to create more space, and as above, he knows he has a problem. Really, really not easy though - just binning things would cause a meltdown because he'd never trust me again, and rightly so.

LemonDrizzled · 01/07/2013 23:56

I have been thinking about this topic and working hard at understanding it for two years since meeting DP. I am struck by how many desperate people there are posting here whose lives are being made harder by material things.

I tried clearing DPs house room by room and throwing out crap. His DM reclaimed all the sixty shampoo/conditioner bottles from the bathroom and his DF goes through the bins retrieving stuff so I have to hide it in my car instead. Now he has two adult kids back from uni with all their stuff it is getting to boiling point. If I was his wife I would have left as she did. But he hates it too he just doesn't know how to manage the situation.
I'm not sure what to do next. His kids are shrieking about the mess, the parents are totally stressed about selling up their old house and he is feeling unable to breathe due to the lack of space.

KatyTheCleaningLady · 02/07/2013 00:07

"I think there are times when you just have to go in and clear. If there are children living in unhygenic or dangerous conditions the line has to be their wellbeing over the person's connection to their hoard and their grief and horror if it is stripped away. But unless it is that sort of back against the wall sort of thing, best not to go behind backs and create a fait accomplis."

So, it has to be actually dangerous and unhygenic. If it's not going to topple down and crush the child physically, and it's not full of feces and dead rats, then the hoard takes priority?

The child still has to live with piles of useless crap. Can't have friends over. Can't find space on the dining room table to do their craft projects. Can't do anything except squeeze back against the wall and make themselves small so the junk can pile higher and higher into their space?

Fuck that.

The very thought of that makes me really angry. It makes me think that the hoarder deserves to suffer the "betrayal" and "violation" of losing everything. Their emotional collapse is... well... their choice. Their just deserts.

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