Ive had an arsehole of a partner for the past 4 years. This will be long.
Got a DD who is 4 and im pregnant with my second who is due in 3 weeks time.
Hes cheated loads throughout the relationship, smashed my confidence to peices, I've no self esteem left and just feel like a shell.
I've been trying to finish things for a while but I've always found a reason to give him another chance. I've always blamed myself for his cheating and disinterest in our relationship. I've suspected for a while that he's been cheating again and I can't prove it but the gut feeling has been enough for me to 'detach' myself from him the past few weeks. He goes out to the pub every night and some nights doesn't even come home. Not ideal when I'm heavily pregnant.
Went out for a meal tonight (his suggestion even though I knew he had plans to go out tonight) and i drove us there because I passed my driving test last week and the whole way there he criticised everything I done and went on about how awful I was at driving. Personally, I think i done really well on a motorway for the first time and for my first time being in a car without an instructor. According to him, I'm awful for driving with DD and bump when I obviously have no idea what I'm doing. I spent the whole meal listening to him complaining and he was really nasty to DD, had her in tears.
I dropped him off at the pub, came home, packed his stuff and took it to him in the pub, dumped it at his feet and told him not to bother coming home again because I've had enough and I mean it. His friends found this hilarious but i dont care. I've got his keys so he can't come home and i dont think he will. He is a 37 year old child.
I am going to be fine as a single parent. I will give my children the best life possible without him. If he wants to maintain contact then that's fine but we will never be able to compete with a pub and a different woman every night.
I am going to start counselling and have some time being single until I sort myself out. I'm looking forward to the future and thank you to everyone on here that has taken the time to give me advice the past few weeks.