themidwife sorry to hear about your difficulties. I used to contemplate venturing onto the stately homes thread (I had a completely deranged mother) but never have, because I try and bury it under other stuff, but every so often you realise that actually, they've totally f*cked you up-
I've had therapy since I was a child (age 8)- I have this severely critical inner voice, directly resulting from my mother, all these totally abnormal set beliefs, all because of her, and also I believe I repeated my relationship with her, in my relationship with my exP. (abusive, controlling, etc)
It's only now, that I can stand back and say 'my god my 'issues' are all related to one another, and I can see how I have interlinked them all stemming back to events that happened before I was even born..
I don't blame her... but I know we will never get on, to the point where we cannot be in the same room for more than an hour.. and she often tells me she wishes I had died at birth
totally mad, abusive, horrible, family background.
I think it can easily repeat in other aspects of life, Jungian-style..
gosh I am not selling myself am I, sound completely nuts 