minimammoth, do you know what you're allergic to? scary
thank you for the assertion of normality we could do with some of that 
kitty thank you for squeezes. sorry to hear about your friend. I think unfinished things are the hardest to resolve, things you never had the chance to say etc. Of course there's absolutely no way you could have known. I'm sorry to hear it affected youlike it did. squeezes from me too
well, I am up because I am eating muffins and doing some work for a lab session tomorrow morning that I am woefully unprepared for.
Went to a dance class tonight (had a month off) but so glad I went, left feeling bouncy and happier. earlier in the day I was on a train, thinking about someone who had died (cheerful I am) and hw I had known he was going to die, because he had been seen in a particular hospital department and my informant was working with his results, but despite knowing this, I never called him. 
and now I never can. Anyway I was pondering this fluid concept of life and death and how at the time, I was affected by my DD, so I didn't have much concept of this process being linear- when the guy on the train next to me said 'are you alright?'' to which I defensively said 'eh? yes yes fine just tired!'
I think I need more dance classes