I have posted a few threads under various names over the last several years. Every time, I have been told by a majority of posters to leave H. I still haven't. I am getting closer to leaving, have visited houses to rent but just didn't get as far as signing the lease. I will, one day.
Yesterday I did the ironing and he kicked the piles of folded clothes and sent them flying and said 'well, you'll have to do that all again, won't you, you fucking bitch.' He gets angry because he doesn't think I do enough cleaning and ironing and stuff. I didn't do the ironing over again, I left it on the floor and went out with the DC and when I came home he'd put everything away. He thinks that makes everything OK, but it does not, he shouldn't have done it in the first place.
He always calls me awful names because he says that I don't listen to him and don't respect him or do what he says. He is angry because I went on works night out before Christmas until 3 a.m and ignored him telling me not to go. 3 a.m is late but we are not in UK and it is usual here to stay out until 6 - 7 a.m. I was the first to go home and even then boss was asking me why I had to go already. I do not go out often - have been out in the evening four times last year, and most times I was back around 12ish and never drunk. He says he is going to make my life hell for being a dirty w and this scares me a bit. He is not violent though he makes threats and sometimes shoves me out of the way if I don't move quickly enough.
I do want to talk with him but it is difficult, even when he is in a good mood he will not listen to me. He wants me to do what he says, but it is not possible to discuss or reach compromise with him. The problem is I always think he may have a point - perhaps I really am lazy and all the rest things he says.
I don't know what I'm posting for really. Just want to tell someone, even though in RL I don't dare tell anyone half the things I've written here.