So much is going on i don't know where to begin...
I'm 18 and have a nearly 4 month old and have an up/down relationship with my 21 fiance. My fiance started changing in the start of my pregnancy and it's progressively getting worse. He constantly made me feel rubbish and would watch porn in front of me, leave his porno mags out and left me to pay for everything alone. I was working as a waitress getting around £400 a month and he's an electrician on nearly £2,000... but me being stupid stuck around. When my precious boy was born Daddy was great.. whilst i was in hospital. But refused to do night feeds as he had to work. After a few weeks i decided i wanted to leave but he said to me if i wanted to leave him i had to leave my baby behind. Scared i stayed. Now it's worse than ever. He stays up between 2-7am playing xbox and watching porn waking me up when he comes to bed (i am a very light sleeper) my lo has numerous minor health issues so i'm still up with him. I can't leave my boy with him for more than an hour as Daddy will play with him for 10 minutes then stick him in a bouncer and play games on his phone. He does nothing for my baby apart from occasionally doing his bottles. He plays with lo for around 5-10 mins daily then leaves it to me. And if i don't have sex with him he gets really moody and whenever we go to bed it's so creepy he's all over me trying to have sex with him. He's occasionally started whilst i've tried to sleep. I haven't slept properly in weeks. My lo was waking up every hour and Daddy was getting grumpy so i 'slept' downstairs. He never once took over and has never said thank you. I'm just at a lost. I want to leave but i'm scared. I love him but he treats me and my son so badly and my son doesn't deserve it. I'm petrified of him taking him away on weekends as i know my baby will be neglected, but i know he will fight for this. I'm so scared/ confused/ lost and upset. I've pretty much cried all day. I really need some advice!