Husband leaving because I've put on weight and he can't bear to look at me.

[UterusUterusGhaLaLaLaLaLi]

Hi all.

I've been going through a v rough patch with dh.
I got PND with my last child, and have put on roughly 3-4 stone in weight. (I'm now a 16/18)

My husband has always had a lower sex drive than me, but in the last year we have done it a handful of times. Dh admitted it was because I'm so fat & really hard to live with. I'm convinced hes having an affair too.

I know I should kick him out. But I really really don't want my marriage to fail. We both work 14hour days, so I don't know what I'll do for childcare. I really can't cope with 3 children on my own.

I just can't stop crying. He has been so cruel.

[AnyFuckerForAMincePie]

I am sorry this is happening to you, but not sorry he is leaving.

It is for the best...for you and your dc

Be prepared for a last minute change of heart though. Not because he remembered he loved you really, but that ow has cold feet and his plans are not panning out as he hoped

[MumVsKids]

One month from now your life will be unrecognisable uterus in a good way that is.

Once you have lost the baggage that is the fuckwit you are currently saddled with, you will definitely likely find that the depression will lift, your self esteem will increase, as will your confidence, and you can have some of your life back.

Does he have to wait until Sunday??? No time like the present and all that.

You will get lots and lots of support from mn, but your strength will increase daily. No one has the right to squash your confidence like he has, he's a bully of the worst kind and you're deserve better.

[Bogeyface]

He leaves on Sunday, so get onto the CSA tomorrow, along with tax credits, etc.

You wont be in poverty and he will be made to pay for his children.

So sorry that he is doing this to you, but I promise you will look back a year from now and be happy that you are no longer with him, and amazed that you put up with him for so long.

[UterusUterusGhaLaLaLaLaLi]

Thanks all for your advice.

Bogeyface, I was at work yesterday, so didn't get to call anyone. I did do the benfits calculator thingie. It's going to be so so tight, but the dc will qualify for free school meals.

Meanwhile he will have, after maintenance etc, £1500 odd to play with. Thats pretty galling.

I don't know if this is for good or not. He days he wants to talk Sunday night, but I have to get ready for school and I've work the next day too.

Ive started bagging up his clothes, but should I take stuff like his pictures of the wall yet, or his granddads medals etc?

[Bearandcub]

I would say yes, bag up his belongings - why would you want them there in your home as reminders of him and his vile behaviour.

I'm so sorry this is happening to you OP.

[MadAboutHotChoc]

Find out about maintenance and child support.

I would put all his stuff in bags.

Tell him SUnday night is not convenient. Suggest a date and time that SUITS you.

[CogitoErgoSometimes]

Absolutely tell him Sunday night isn't convenient. In fact, even if it was convenient, you'd still say it's not convenient. This is about you setting the agenda from now on, shifting the power balance in the relationship in order to start rebuilding your confidence.

Also... if post-maintenance he would be left with a disproportionately high amount of money, then that probably means the amount is too low. The CSA calculator is just a guide.. a bare minimum... but you can agree a higher sum between you. A decent man should not want his children to live in poverty

[giraffesCantGoFirstFooting]

you deserve more

[mummywithnosleep]

Oh Love, this is the best diet you will ever have, you are about to lose several stone of usless fat!

You are NOT NOT NOT NOT the problem he is! Infact the only problem you may have is some bad luck or possibly defulty shit man detector.

You are NOT fat, I bet you would look lovely at a size 28 never mind an 18.

Sertrolin is terrible for weight gain, and I bet your depression will start to ease once you circumstances change.

Ok, so now you need to be proactive,

Make an Appointment and go to the CAB
Find the numbers for solictors in your area that deal with divorce
Get claim packs for every benefit you can and fill them in (CAB will help there)
Make an appointment with the GP.
See if you can get some counciling (relate may be able to help) for Free FOR YOU! Not to try and help you and DP but to help you have some support and a safe area to decompress.
Bag up his clothes but I would not worry about the stuff on the walls

You will be ok,

[UterusUterusGhaLaLaLaLaLi]

Should the children see him leave, or should he put them to bed?
He'll be back at 06:00 to watch them while I work.

Im sweating the small stuff, aren't I?

[CogitoErgoSometimes]

I would explain to the children, together, that Dad is going away but will see them again on x day, call on the telephone or whatever. BTW... find other childcare long-term. It may be convenient for you both but having exes hanging around like a bad smell as childminders - especially abusive, unfaithful ones that have spent years insulting your appearance and smashing your confidence - is not good for your mental health and won't help you move on with your life.