First of all a very happy new year to you and all of your families hope it brings you everything you wish for.
Ok so i am going to tell you my story some of you may judge me some of you won't but here goes.
Three years ago i met dp through a mutal friend we got together and fell in love very quickly and 6 months later decided to have a baby (this is where you may judge or think i'm stupid) i knew his past as a criminal and i still wanted to continue with the relationship when we met he was at uni studying art so i never had any reason to doubt he would return to crime so agreed to have a baby a month later i poas and got a bfp and as soon as i saw those two little lines i regretted it i didn't really know this man even though i did love him! So fast forward three months found out iwas having twins 
and thats where it went down hill two days after my scan he got arrested and was sent to jail for three years it broke my heart and i was terrified about having two babies to care for on my own.
I decided to wait for him (judge away) so we could try and have a family together i done all the visits getting on boats,coaches and driving every week to see him with dcs until he was released in april an since then life has been harder than i could ever have imagined ha has no intrest in me at all doesn't want to spend time with me or dcs and chooses his friends over us all the time he has been abusive rude and damn right nasty to me making me feel as though i am nothing and never was telling me i have changed and so has my body (i have lost all baby weight and back to the same size as when we met but with a little mummy tummy) there have been lots of times i thought he was cheating and still think he is.
He is a compulsive lier and this is one thing i cannot bear in a person and i cannot take it anymore the last straw came on xmas eve when he came home with a gift from someone not a problem in itself so i asked him who had got it for him first of all he said he bought it himself and when i looked at the box (silly i know) there was wrapping paper on it so i asked why did you wrap it up for yourself he then changed his mind and said a male friend bought it for him i knew he was lying anyway so on friday i looked onthe dreaded fb and saw a comment he made on another girls wall asking her for the said present i flipped out and finished it with him.
So i am now sitting here heartbroken again thinking of the future alone and trying to find a way to deal with him seeing dcs i need a plan of action i also need a job and a new home so am asking you lovely ladies to give me a kick up the arse.