But I've replied already! It will be the last reply though. I suppose I still feel the need to defend myself. This is what I put.
"That is just the kind of email I expected from you. Can you not see or
understand in any what whatsoever what you did that hurt me so much?
Ok, so let's forget about that, I don't expect an explanation or an apology.
I will never cut my children off from you, you should know that. I would
like to think that I am a reasonably-minded, fair and down to earth person.
I don't call people evil, I don't go around saying bad things, I don't get
involved in the arguments of the family. I have always listened to both
sides of the argument, with you, I've never taken
sides and refuse to do so even now. Your arguments are with them, not me,
so please don't involve me in them. And don't bring into it, I know
he loves me, but what has that to do with anything? I'll always be here for
as I would any of them!
I speak only from my own experiences and how I feel. I respect that what
you said in your email is how you feel, so you must respect my feelings too.
You can change things, you have that power. I'm always willing to listen,
always willing to talk. You know me very well and what hurts is that in
your mind you are turning me into a monster, someone who deliberately set
out to have a go at and who would keep her kids away from you, someone
who bitches about you to all members of the family, but that is not who I am
and you know that. I have no wish to perpetuate existing arguments, I have
nothing to gain by expanding on bitterness. What you say to me and what I
say to you stays with me, I don't tell others, why should I? What would I
stand to gain?
But this argument will run on and on. I want to let go of it and live my
life. I hope you can do that too."
I've probably done it all wrong by even answering, but there you go.