The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Spicing Up The Winter Nights With Rich Hot Chocolate And Thermal Tights!

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Hello, I'm Mouse

I'm one of the Brave Babes travelling on this fantabulous Bus, on it's journey to the wonderful world of sobriety.

The great thing is, that the people on here are a real mixed bunch. Some are drinking regularly, some aren't. Some are sober and have been for any number of days, some weeks, months and yep, some even for years.

There's no judging pants allowed, no savoury flans either , just lots of unconditional support from many varied sources. Yes, some of us have been here from the start but please don't let that stop you posting, this thread is for EVERYONE and it always has been

If you'd like to have a look back, here are some links. One to the previous thread and one to the very first, and the reason we are all still here.

See you soon,

Mouse xx

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Just checking in.

Thanks for your wise words Baby. The great thing about the evening after the evening before is how well I know I'm going to sleep and that I'll wake up in the morning feeling good. Just need to hold off the wine tomorrow night - that's my pattern when I'm drinking, one night on, one night off.

Hope you're all settling down for a calm evening and that if anyone's having cravings they'll find a way to get over them.

Hello all,

Not a great week here (crikey, it's hardly begun!).

No to perfectionist, no to drugs, yes to smoking, and no to eating disorders, apart from when I was 15 (I'm now 53!), but sometimes still engineer arguments so that I can throw away my dinner, because "I don't deserve it" .

Oh, and yes to making it my responsibilty for making everything ok and happy for everyone around me.

ma ? you alright hen?

Evening, tis me, Mouse

Firstly - typo correction from last night, I was on Nemo's tablet and it's like typing on jelly!

So - Let's keep an eye out for those who need a bit more Brave Babe power in their woolley socks than normal? A bit like the Readybrek glow!

Secondly - Kiki - drugs? Yep, loads, all of them and more, never enough and all the weekend long, drink? The same, and eating disorders? Yep. Especially when taking drugs and clubbing. Then later when I was in a very abusive relationship, sometimes as 'punishment' he'd throw my food away, and then eat his own, making me watch. [cringe] and

Perfectionist with OCD, ex smoker and feel that I have to make sure that others are okay first, before myself always. In every aspect of my life. This part however, is only a recent thing........ last 10 years maybe, not from my clubbing days.

WARNING - ME ME ME ME ME ME POST ALERT

Nemo is very hard work. We went to school for a couple of hours this afternoon and it's done him the world of good and shown me even more so that he needs his routine back right now. DH is ill.

His stress is manifesting as tonsillitis again. Mine, when it comes, will be a meltdown of epic proportions. We're snapping at each other...... Nemo's speech has changed so much, everything is weird, I want to scoop him up and run away with him so he can't have the pain again, no more.

NO. MORE. PAIN.

Sorry to bring the thread down....

Ma - are you okay?

Soma - you've been in my thoughts all day, I've not really read back much tbh, I just say Kiki's post..... about drugs etc.....

I need to go...

IsinDe - fab to see you back lovely, are you okay?

Night all, Nemo calls. Again. xxxx

mousey hope your DH feels better soon my DH also gets tonsillitis when he's run down. shove some multivitamins at him. hope you all get a decent nights sleep.

alias, mouse I'm fine. Dh and dd2 chipping away at each other constantly and I am caught in the middle. SHE "needs to lose the attitude" and HE " needs to get out of my face". Have done the oil on troubled water thing until I am sick of it.
Thurso are you OK my friend. PM me if you need to.

I wish you and your family no more pain from the bottom of my heart Mouse. I wish I'd met you in your clubbing days, I was still doing it well into my 40s (oldest raver in town ) and sometimes yearn for those days. Not the horrendous comedowns though, worse than any hangover. Sleep well all, my bed is beckoning and a book that simply has to be finished tonight if I can keep my eyes open long enough.

Joey and Mouse your DHs are obviously much younger than me, when I was a kid tonsils were routinely yanked out, along with those annoying adenoid things in the nose.

Mouse - poor Nemo, so much to bear so young

Yes, was same wrt drugs - anything and everything, never could have enough, def triggered eating disorders too. I thought at the time would never be free of it...think if i hadn't had children I'd have burnt out back then in my 20s prob

Yep, soba, hideous comedowns...going home as the birds were starting to twitter at 5/6am.. So so lonely and empty (((shudder)))) , fkn awful existence once the comedown outweighs the highs

Never done drugs, never been clubbing. Very boring.

Used to be an 'all or nothing gal'. Probably still am at heart but am teaching myself to moderate all things. How's that for boring then ma?

Checking in to turn off for the night. Just to say - after I nearly cancelled again - my date was really nice! And he said he wants to see me again! Good grief! And....annnnnd.....didn't drink any alcohol either! (I may have been a tad more talkative if I had but, there you go). Will catch up tomorrow morning. Night Babes, sweet dreams all. xxx

Mouse also wishing I could take the pain away for you all - are you me in a previous life? - weekends, perfectionism,OCD :) Really hope you and Nemo get through the night okay xx

Big love to mouse and nemo your in my prayers as are all you lovely babes x x x

Morning brave babes! Leucan are you still with us? - hope you are okay

Morning lovlies. Yes Leucan hope you're OK and just too busy to post. Kiki I agree, there's something truly wretched about the feeling one gets when the high wears off. So glad I'm well and truly past all that. Now I only have hangovers to deal with. Still, I haven't got one today and I intend not to have one tomorrow either.

It's feckin cold down south, a dusting of snow this morning but I love the run-up to Christmas. Catch up later all xx

Morning soba green and my kindred Kiki a bright clear day in bonny Scotland and a bright clear head, it was a relief not to be drinking last night, does anyone feel they use wine as a reward and as a punishment, a friend you love and hate in equal measures but remain obsessed with. leucan where are you missy? Have a good day everyone x x x

kotinka why not get them cosied up on the couch with a movie and that might but you some time, my dd was off with a sore throat yesterday and by god it was a long day,

koti poor you and kids! are they in bed? You must all be so miserable

ps. its freezing outside, you don't want to go out anyway, believe me

koti would bribery work eg. if you give me peace for 1 hour you can eat all the chocolates from your advent calendar?

I am repeating the Bus mantra 'One Day At A Time' over and over to try and manage my anxiety. I'm dreading telling my boss that I've been signed off work tomorrow (if I do tell her, maybe I won't say anything and just carry on)